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well back to rant and rave about my fun xmas....
more ranting then raving....so stop reading if you're all about fun xmas times
well thursday night me and kylie went to the movies...hes such an upbeat fun guy im glad he was there to make me smile despite problems at the home , we saw the movie with jim carrey which was oddly good to my surprise, then i came back home and went to sleep

friday xmas eve had off did all of my xmas shopping in one day me and my sister are the awesomest at last minute gifts...we made it in and out of the mall in 4 hours-well 3 malls, with no harm done except to my savings account, lol.
and then i wrapped and played santa for the night and drove everywhere to drop off gifts and visit with friends....and then i was gonna go stay at my friends but i had the guilt coming on of not being at home xmas morning, so jsut went home

saturday xmas day- opened gifts, got the usual money, clothes gift cards and such....my mom was pretty bad off that day...she def was talking to her "friends" and laughing all to herself and not talking to any of us and being her normal schizophrenic/bi-polar self.....after the holidays are over and things are normal we're all gonna have an intervention and make her go talk to someone damnit!!!!
then after all the present opening and all my ex who i may ahve a reconciliation with-ben and i went to see the darkness...good movie except for the ending, you will b highly disappointed....the went to his moms and had dinner, went to erics with ben and chilled went to daves with them drank watched concert videos played need for speed 3 and went back to his place, and slept in his small ass bed, lol.
none from him for xmas...way too tired, lol-surprisingly, or just alot of shit on my mind....
but we jsut cuddled and talked and such...it was good, we'll see where this one goes, hopefully better
well i hope everyones holiday was better than mine, im out