you know i noticed something today between leaving the gym and going to pick up some nicoderm, most times in my life where ive gotten depressed ive took a journey towards self destruction. but this time im going the opposite direction and going down a path to self correction. im quiting smoking, working out twice a day (time willing) and not drinking very much. could it be i have matured or could it be that i was just ready to move on? hopefully the path im taking will not lead to a different type of destruction. only time will tell. 