imbleeding

[mood]: broken.
[music]: "Glad to be unhappy"-Mommas+the Papas.

Today has been the most horrible day. *gothik sigh* I didn't know things could get this bad....

But anyway tho. Last nite was equally stupid. Brian, Jeff + I all went to Jessicka's house to get drunk. But, we only had a bottle of Grey Goose that was 1/4 full. So, I got to take three shots and see Jeff pout, Brian read his Roland mag., Jessicka look confused, Matt whine, and this other guy I didnt know act dumb. Then Jeff sat out in his car and acted moody for an hour until I walked out in the rain to confront him about why he was acting like a douche bag. "I'm not. I just dont want to be here". BLAH!!! So, I said "fuck it". I dont feel like dealing with his ridiculous attitude. I'm not anti-social like him, I'm not moody like him, I'm not a complete fucking jerk-off like him....I'm really fed up with Jeff right now. I'll stop ranting now and just go back to watching "I love the 80's" on VH1.
My grandma called last nite and said she was sending me pics of pin-up girls for my birthday. Yay! I feel bad for her because my aunt Amy is beinga total cunt. Her babys daddy left her to go to the Dominican Republic, so she decided to bite the hand that feeds her and take her anger out on my grandparents. So, my grandma is going through chemo and Amy decided to go out and do a bunch of coke and show up at the house with the drug-dealer [who demanded that my grandma pay for all the coke that amy did that she didnt pay for]. She got arrested for an outstanding warrant last week and then decided that it would be good to go do a bunch of blow. Fucking retarded. Okay, I really will stop ranting now.
I'll go crawl into a hole now.
[x]: fantasy.