I have been going through a confusing day... I have,
for a long time been submissive. But over the past few
years I have only been sub in the bedroom. But our
friend that came over, AJ, he was able just to talk to
me and dominate me while making me feel safe and
(mostly) comfortable. Hes tall and broad shouldered
and makes me feel small and young... Hes not someone I
would have expected to form this kind of relationship
with, actually, I would never imagined it... But it
has. And the way he talks to me calms and soothes me.
It was strange to have someone tell me what to do and
me to automaticly listen. I was feeling conflicted.
But Alan and I had a conversation, and Im feeling
better. Ive actually been given homework writing
assignments from AJ to assist with the dom/sub as well
as the hypnosis... I dont know if any of you will
understand all of this, but I figure I have a better
chance of being understood here then other places I
could vent my circumstances and feelings. Its odd how
things work sometimes, I guess well see how it goes
this weekend when Jac and AJ are over... Oh, other
interesting news about that, she wants to get a new
piercing; hes going to do it... She agreed to be
wearing only boy-cut undies for it! Ive never seen her
in so little before... Were going to help AJ move
Saturday... Currently, he lives an hour and a half
away. Hes moving to a place less then half hour away.
I imagine well be seeing alot of him as he works only
three days a week, he does EMT transport. I guess Ill
leave you all with a To Be Continued
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for a long time been submissive. But over the past few
years I have only been sub in the bedroom. But our
friend that came over, AJ, he was able just to talk to
me and dominate me while making me feel safe and
(mostly) comfortable. Hes tall and broad shouldered
and makes me feel small and young... Hes not someone I
would have expected to form this kind of relationship
with, actually, I would never imagined it... But it
has. And the way he talks to me calms and soothes me.
It was strange to have someone tell me what to do and
me to automaticly listen. I was feeling conflicted.
But Alan and I had a conversation, and Im feeling
better. Ive actually been given homework writing
assignments from AJ to assist with the dom/sub as well
as the hypnosis... I dont know if any of you will
understand all of this, but I figure I have a better
chance of being understood here then other places I
could vent my circumstances and feelings. Its odd how
things work sometimes, I guess well see how it goes
this weekend when Jac and AJ are over... Oh, other
interesting news about that, she wants to get a new
piercing; hes going to do it... She agreed to be
wearing only boy-cut undies for it! Ive never seen her
in so little before... Were going to help AJ move
Saturday... Currently, he lives an hour and a half
away. Hes moving to a place less then half hour away.
I imagine well be seeing alot of him as he works only
three days a week, he does EMT transport. I guess Ill
leave you all with a To Be Continued
____________________________________________________________________________________
Do you Yahoo!?
Everyone is raving about the all-new Yahoo! Mail beta.
http://new.mail.yahoo.com
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abyssia:
You and I haven't corresponded in quite some time so forgive me if this feels like I'm intruding.... I just wanted to let you know that I can relate to your experience and that I think you described it exquisitely. To physically surrender, yield your will to another even though your mind may race or question... to find yourself doing as you are instructed regardless, and enjoying it taking comfort in it. It is rare, and precious, I think, to find a person to whom one can submit so naturally.
wyoh:
Well, I ended up getting another account, and this is my new one. If anyone ever sees this again... I'm now Wyoh