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Well, turns out I had a flu relapse...today is the first day I have actually been able to sit at the computer for any period of time...for the most part I've been laying on the couch or in the bed. I never realized how little there was to watch on tv these days...I mean, I must have flipped through 50 thousand channels..nothing...I ended up watching the end of The Fugitive last night, and then some celebrity channel with like 101 best kept secrets or something like that...and I was sitting there thinking to myself..do people watch this stuff every day? I think I may have watched a little comedy channel too...but for some reason I can't remember anything after the celebrity thing..must have made me brain dead or something..OH..I watched a little Howard Stern..something about a girl who had tried out for Playboy twice and was turned down...it was too painful to watch..she was georgous...but I just couldn't handle the way they were talking to her..I mean..okay..so she's a porn star..that doesn't mean she still isn't a woman! I don't care if I was in anal sluts from hell, I would not want someone to call me a slut to my face outside of that atmosphere...I dont know..I'm just weird..I mean, you could tell by her facial reaction that it caught her off guard and she was slightly offended..then she like slipped into porn mode and put the smile back on and went along with it..but that initial reaction...that made me feel so uneasy for her...sigh...being a swinger I know how that can feel..some of the male portions of our couple friends don't seem to understand the difference between being at a swingers club and just going out for dinner and to a movie...if I'm just hanging out with people...with no intentions of having sex of any kind..the last thing I want is sexual comments thrown in my general direction! I can't stand it! I mean, have some respect!! Sure, I may swing..but that's not all that I am! I am a woman too damn it..I'm intellegent, artistic....there's more to me than pussy! That's another thing I hate....girls don't like to be referred to as pussy..they just really don't...man..that was an unexpected rant! LOL