Its been awhile since ive made any kind of post on here. I finally got around o renewing my membership, I must say ive missed the community on here. SG its son social platform I feel i can really open up on. i find alot of the threads amazing. So much as changed in my life, for better and worse and its nice to feel not alone. Im not a very social person, im quite introvert and ive been dealing with depression and its caused me to push away the friends I have. I know there still there for me and care. I just wondering what they think cause im never around and i do feel like im missing out on stuff. Its hard to find the motivation to want to go out and enjoy the day. I don't know how people stay strong and so positive. Sometimes I think im the most negative person in the world.. Sure i can smile and look happy but I don't feel happy with myself and that killed my last relationship.. And im still in love with that women and hope are feeling cross again. Im only 23 and I know moving back home isn't hat bad at that age but i kind of hate it. but I wasn't in the right place to afford to live on my own after my roommates moved out. I feel its made my depression worse. Even though its my parents house, and my old room...I don't feel at home. I felt more at home in my own house. So now im trying to get back on my feet so I can leave my parents house again. Im extremely thankful for all my parents of done to help me but I don't want to stay. any way this blog is all over the place.
