his love for me is apparent,
i no longer need to question it.
my love for me is receding,
i need to divert my attention back unto it.
obsessed with change, i sometimes get wrapped up in changing the people around me; i tend to forget that i too need a cause to effect my state of existence. thus, i stagnate as i try to propel those around me.
but they can wait. they can attend to themselves.. they don't necessarily want the change as much as i want it for them.
furthermore, i now realize that the changes i'd wanted to impose on their lives are essentially those which i'd like to manifest in my own.
time for a change.
i no longer need to question it.
my love for me is receding,
i need to divert my attention back unto it.
obsessed with change, i sometimes get wrapped up in changing the people around me; i tend to forget that i too need a cause to effect my state of existence. thus, i stagnate as i try to propel those around me.
but they can wait. they can attend to themselves.. they don't necessarily want the change as much as i want it for them.
furthermore, i now realize that the changes i'd wanted to impose on their lives are essentially those which i'd like to manifest in my own.
time for a change.
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Still not on the same page with you on CASABLANCA, but - VERTIGO! I cannot think of a better scene-for-scene movie to write up. For me, it's a perfectly edited motion picture - and highly watchable after so many years. I'm a HUGE collector of anything VERTIGO, so if you have questions, I'll attempt to answer them.
SUCH a tragic love story, done in this Technicolor operatic style only Hitchcock could do - I'm always moved by the Bernard Herrmann score.
I must stress that the "dom" part of Jimmy Stewart has - on the other hand - had no influence on this kid! He is SO odd, and demanding - "It can't matter to YOU, Judy" - that is way off-putting. I am a much saner person, I like to think (although a British chum told me Kim Novak liked bondage and spankings.......a little bit of rubbish trivia there).
A highly recommended book to take a look at is FOOTSTEPS IN THE FOG, as well as a copy (in second-hand stores) of the original novel - it's quite different and fascinating in it's way.
There is also a really in-depth (visually) website aboout VERTIGO, but I do not have the site at my hands right now (I've been a bad sort of updater because I use different computers on vacation). It's called, I think, WIDESCREEN: VERTGO - something like that.
I'd be happy to send you copies of color and black and white stills (behind the scenes too) if you have a copier.
I cannot comment on your ex - as you say, time to move on....
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