THE BLOGITRON!
Sooo.... hey. What's up? You come here often? I know you don't, I'm be facetious.
Anyways. Things to talk about, there are many.
People call me a robot, emotionless, cold, etc... Not often, but it an adjective that has been used about me more than a handful of times. The issue is that it's entirely untrue... sorta. Ok so I guess sorta means not entirely, SHUT UP!
Here's the thing. I'm passionate. My emotions run at 11. I would not call myself "emo", dear god, no.... But I say again I think "passionate" accurately describes me. Doesn't matter if it's love, hate, anger, fear, compassion, whatever... when I'm feeling it it's pulsing through me with tremendous amplitude.
I learned over years that this can get me, and people around me, in serious trouble. Being angry with someone could cause me to get violent, outright hating people caused me to manipulate events to specifically ruin portions of their life, when I love I can become very attached and protective - also opening myself up for horrible hurt.
Anyways, you get the jist. So having learned this I began tempering myself. I don't know how to just turn it down a few notches... so instead, I turn them off. Sometimes I can't get them to 0, but pretty shut off. That's not to say I NEVER allow myself to feel things or be passionate about things. I do. But I pick my moments and my subjects.
Anyways, the point of this is I had an interesting conversation today. It was with Nerra. She texted me and wanted to apologize for how things ended with us and own up to the mistakes she made. This is something I never though I'd hear from her, but always hoped I would. This has helped subside a lot of my anger about the situation. I still wish it didn't have to end the way it did, but her talking to me about it goes a long way to making up for it. I am nothing if not forgiving. Sometimes to a fault.
She wanted us to be friends. I told her that while I missed her.. I could not go back to being just friends. I'd unwittingly sabotage it and be a horrible friend, something I don't want to do.
Anyways. Saw Avatar in IMAX 3D and I'll be honest... I wish I had just gone to see it in a regular theater. The 3D wasn't a huge deal and it gave me a headache. I describe the movie like this (warning geek lingo ahead)
Avatar: Dances with Wolves as told through the conflict of Space Marines vs Night Elves set in the lands of Zangarmarsh and Nagrand. If you know what all of those are, I just gave you every detail you need to know to see it.
Was it good? Yeah. HOLY SHIT AEISFHSIDFNASFIOH AMAZING?! No. It was just good.
Imaginarium starts this weekend on Christmas, I'm much more excited about it.
Speaking of Xmas. I hate this holiday. Not really that I hate it as much as I hate what it's become and the way people are around the holiday. I did all my shopping in an hour on Amazon. Because that's how I roll. I only bought for my roomates and my immediate family. Well, and I chipped in with some friends to get another friend a Kindle.
That's the kind of thing I LIKE to do... to me that's what Xmas REALLY should be about. People banding together to get someone something they could not otherwise afford. Not a bunch of random gift exchanges of shit that I would have bought for myself if it hadn't been for xmas. Bah.
Well this has gone on too long and for that I apologize. Have a good time every one and I hope to have pictures from New Years after that happens.
Sooo.... hey. What's up? You come here often? I know you don't, I'm be facetious.
Anyways. Things to talk about, there are many.
People call me a robot, emotionless, cold, etc... Not often, but it an adjective that has been used about me more than a handful of times. The issue is that it's entirely untrue... sorta. Ok so I guess sorta means not entirely, SHUT UP!
Here's the thing. I'm passionate. My emotions run at 11. I would not call myself "emo", dear god, no.... But I say again I think "passionate" accurately describes me. Doesn't matter if it's love, hate, anger, fear, compassion, whatever... when I'm feeling it it's pulsing through me with tremendous amplitude.
I learned over years that this can get me, and people around me, in serious trouble. Being angry with someone could cause me to get violent, outright hating people caused me to manipulate events to specifically ruin portions of their life, when I love I can become very attached and protective - also opening myself up for horrible hurt.
Anyways, you get the jist. So having learned this I began tempering myself. I don't know how to just turn it down a few notches... so instead, I turn them off. Sometimes I can't get them to 0, but pretty shut off. That's not to say I NEVER allow myself to feel things or be passionate about things. I do. But I pick my moments and my subjects.
Anyways, the point of this is I had an interesting conversation today. It was with Nerra. She texted me and wanted to apologize for how things ended with us and own up to the mistakes she made. This is something I never though I'd hear from her, but always hoped I would. This has helped subside a lot of my anger about the situation. I still wish it didn't have to end the way it did, but her talking to me about it goes a long way to making up for it. I am nothing if not forgiving. Sometimes to a fault.
She wanted us to be friends. I told her that while I missed her.. I could not go back to being just friends. I'd unwittingly sabotage it and be a horrible friend, something I don't want to do.
Anyways. Saw Avatar in IMAX 3D and I'll be honest... I wish I had just gone to see it in a regular theater. The 3D wasn't a huge deal and it gave me a headache. I describe the movie like this (warning geek lingo ahead)
Avatar: Dances with Wolves as told through the conflict of Space Marines vs Night Elves set in the lands of Zangarmarsh and Nagrand. If you know what all of those are, I just gave you every detail you need to know to see it.
Was it good? Yeah. HOLY SHIT AEISFHSIDFNASFIOH AMAZING?! No. It was just good.
Imaginarium starts this weekend on Christmas, I'm much more excited about it.
Speaking of Xmas. I hate this holiday. Not really that I hate it as much as I hate what it's become and the way people are around the holiday. I did all my shopping in an hour on Amazon. Because that's how I roll. I only bought for my roomates and my immediate family. Well, and I chipped in with some friends to get another friend a Kindle.
That's the kind of thing I LIKE to do... to me that's what Xmas REALLY should be about. People banding together to get someone something they could not otherwise afford. Not a bunch of random gift exchanges of shit that I would have bought for myself if it hadn't been for xmas. Bah.
Well this has gone on too long and for that I apologize. Have a good time every one and I hope to have pictures from New Years after that happens.
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*breaks cider bottle on bar and lunges it in your general direction*
hahaha
i am kinda shocked and kinda pleased that you have rude boy roots
p.s. your new sn for the next few days is ilooklikesanta, you grinch.