Ill tell you now you cant win this
Youre way too slow
Ill tell you now Im gonna take this
Did you come here to watch me, watch me burn?
Ill let it show that
Im not always hiding
Come all the way down
And watch me burn
I wont let it show that
Im not always flying
So on the way down
Ill watch you burn
So let me know just how to take this
Youre way to cold
Now show me how before it breaks me
Did you come here to watch me, watch me burn?
Ill let it show that
Im not always hiding
Come all the way down
And watch me burn
I wont let it show that
Im not always flying
So on the way down
Ill watch you burn
Noooooooo, ooooooooh
Ill let it show that
Im not always hiding
Come all the way down
And watch me burn
I wont let it show that
Im not always flying
So on the way down
Ill watch you burn
back from the bar, my friend absolutely loved it. friend from fort hood, she says its gonna be her birthday place lol.
anyways.....
of all the people i got rid of recently, ALL have been slowly re-entering into my life. but now, its slow and without meaning (on the ones that got serious) and remaining on a level that i can handle. so i will slowly continue with each, searching for a new boundary in which i can reach them. my stress has dramatically decreased in the past couple weeks, and its been ideal.
granted, it may be job hunting time again. unemployment is over, and school is not, so i may end up taking a serious hit to the wallet. i will NOT allow work to come before my school, and luckily my gi bill pays all my bills, so whatever job i get will be primarily just.... fun money.
however...
me and the roomie discussed a few ideas recently, the best being the legal motorcycle chop shop. im definitely down for the idea, we just need to get it started. wouldnt really cost too much, and will be fun, easy, profitable, and we may end up finding parts we could swap on our bikes.
as far as this "friend" i have had here for the past week..... well
its like when you move out of some place, but feel like you left something. so you go back to that place and search up and down and everywhere.... but no matter how hard you look, your just in an empty building. absolutely nothing exists but what needs to to be a building. i had been searching for an escape route, and i found this empty vessel. but i dont want it, its too hollow, too shallow.... too... cold. so the search continues. i would like to be that part of the old me, where i could just ignore my heart altogether, have no desire to find any form of "love" and just be. but to become that, would destroy everything i have recently grown myself into. it would make all the pain and suffering and self destruction in vein. so.... the search continues.
MORNING UPDATE:
so my ducks have been MIA since like day one at my apartment. this morning i figured out why...
they had little chicks!!!!!! unfortunately my phone camera isnt badass enough to get good shots, but heres what i did grab
but complication shows itself.... it turns out the drop into the pond is like a foot big, and the chicks cannot jump out. in essence, they are stuck in the pond... so here we go engineer brain!!!!
storage lid nailed to ground with pizza box stapled for grip. stay tuned for updates on operation save the chicks, and today is puppy day, so more pictures to come later. everybody have these chicks in your thoughts!!!
so sunday afternoon update.... the chicks... they made it!!!! they all got out and are perfectly great and cute.
whos ready for puppy pictures?
pretty girl missed me
puppy snugs
the good boy
the clumsy whale
GQ boy
couch potatoes
its amazing how good this little girl makes me feel
There are very less chances of finding a Sagittarius man alone. In most probability, you will always find him surrounded by a crowd. It will be entirely upto you to move away that crowd and get closer to him. He is also very optimistic about life and this optimism may sometimes border around blind faith. This attitude leads him to trust almost everyone and, more often than not, he ends up getting hurt. A Sagittarian male will always be running after some high dreams, which probably no one even thought of before.
While running, he often fails to see the puddles, falls flat on his face and then, gets hurt. It does not mean that the dreams are not practical. He would have investigated them thoroughly and they will be realistic too, even though the world is not yet ready for them. The problem is that in his enthusiasm, he trusts everyone and some of those people thrash his dreams, even before he could try to realize them. However, a Sagittarius guy has an exceptionally good luck, which seldom runs out.
Even though his dreams don't turn out to be the way he planned, he'll always end up with something useful. There may be times when he returns empty-handed, but then, he has the ability to forget this and move on again. Same is the case with love also. Sagittarian men tend to move over lost love with as much ease as lost dreams. When they form friendships, they tend to look much beyond the external appearances. The heart matters to them more than the looks. A Sagittarius man doesn't have many enemies.
Even those he might have hurt with his frank opinions and comments usually realize his harmless intentions. He may lack tact, diplomacy and consideration, but he is never deliberately mean. He doesn't know the meaning of sugarcoated truth and his statements will always be straightforward, direct and to the point. Still, people never go away from him forever. They will come back once the anger has subsided and then, be his close friends once again. A Sagittarius male seldom forms long-lasting relationships.
Most of them would be casual and at time, they may be promiscuous too. However, he is never dishonest in a relationship and will never say 'I Love You', even he doesn't mean it. He will tell you all about his previous relationships as well as what he expects out of the present one with you. He seldom lies, but his flirtation may sometimes be confused with commitment and result in a proposal from the girl. In case this happens, he will definitely think over it and most probably, agree to the marriage, which will be destined to lead to divorce.
A Sagittarian guy is a flirt, but he does not always form licentious relationships. He may be looking for a platonic partner, with whom to roam around and have fun. At times, his friendliness may also be confused with flirtations. If you want to enter into a serous relationship with such a man, remember that he looks for a woman with brains. Intelligence turns him on and bimbos are a strict no-no. After you have managed to win a Sagittarian man's love, give him freedom. In exchange, never let him curb your independence.
Don't try to bind him and please never be suspicious of him. He is way too honest to be disloyal to you and he expects you to be sincere and truthful in return. Boredom makes him miserable and he wants a wife who is as enthusiastic about life as he is. Always encourage his weirdest of dreams and when he is not there, keep yourself busy with other things. Once you become sure of his commitment, throw subtle hints about marriage. However, never be the one to propose or suggest it.
You can even say that if the relationship doesn't lead to marriage, you can still be good friends. In all the probability, your Sagittarian man will propose marriage and make it work too. He will never let his family members or relatives interfere in your life and you will be expected to do the same. Never ever doubt his integrity or you will have to bear his nasty temper. When and if he is wrong, he will always come and admit it. He believes that truth and honesty is the basis of all relationships and he will make sure to follow this.
A Sagittarius man wants his wife to mingle with people just as he does. If you are a little reserved, try to come out of your inhibitions. He will never try to put curbs on you and he will not mind even if you work after marriage. With him, prepare yourself for some forthright criticism. Infact, by this time, you should have gotten used to it. He may take time to get used to kids, but once he does, he will become their closest buddy and give them lots of love and affection. Don't neglect him when the children come. He was the first love of your life and should remain so. Just be there when he trips and will always be there for you in return!
i hate when shit like this sounds so fucking right....
