illuminatus

so apparently, today ALSO had a lesson for me. and this time around it wasnt someone yelling at me or words from a good author. no, this time it was someting simple. my dogs.

my oldest, raiden, has finally found a toy that makes him go crazy and giddy. a mere soccer ball. for some reason or another, he just seems to hate that thing. so my littlest, doobie, who always seems to need to have whatever any of the others are having fun with, went after it. took him a few tries but eventually figured it out. we used to think that he would just take a toy to try to be alpha of some sort, though kenai clearly is the alpha dog. but he went after this thing just as hard. i mean friggin hard. heres what he looks like with it


was fun to watch, then to sit around and just watch them run around. started thinking about, about how happy they are with just pure simplicity. a soccer ball. thy played with that thing until they were tired. so i decided to allow this thought process to expand, and decided to take my girl kenai to the dog park.



along the way, i was really paying attention to the world around me. and actually noticed something:


TEXAS IS FUCKING GREEN! thats a complete rarity! usually its all just.... well, dead. for anyone whos been down here, youd know. theres not much of plant life down here. going back to a previous post involving my rose bush, spring really is here. it really is the season of rebirth!

so anyways, walked around a bit with my pretty girl, she loved it lol


i only have that one picture cuz i was playign with her a bit. now usually shes a pretty aggresive dog, but around me she stays calm, almost fearful. but she did good this time around, didnt have to put her into submissive mode to let dogs sniff her. its so awesome to see my girl blossoming into the dog world! lol

so we did a few laps and met some nice dogs, all awhile letting me think a bit.

this world moves fast. very fast, especially in the city. its so easy to get so caught up in it we miss so much of the small things that make life worth while. i know i did. have i really been moving so fast to.... nowhere? im still in school till december. i mean yeah that may not be that long in the realm of my life, but thats another 9 months. why am i moving so fast? why am i forcing myself to think so far ahead in my life? i need to pull back, slow down, let things happen while admiring my present. i need to just take a breath and look around and take it what i see.

taking kenai to the dog park was extremely joyful. i was just a very happy person walking her around, watchign her have her fun. admiring other dogs and their owners interactions with them. just seeing the pure joy on these animals, wondering why i cant do the same. and i realized i was. i was having a blast and it didnt require me going out or seeing a movie or buying a new game. just taking my dog to the park. was bliss. nothing to sit and worry about, just watch her have fun.

i think im going to make this a new regular occurance. i really like it.

EDIT:
went out to water my plants and spray my front door area off and saw this in my tree out front

looks like im starting to host more animal life at my place! saweet!

and this is what my front house plant life is starting to look like


just need to get some lawn care stuff. ill be ready to have a colorful alive lawn this summer!