illuminatus

I can't quite see or feel what my future may hold. I know this may sound like a normal thought to most, but for me, it reverberates in my head as sound waves in a desolate valley. Or better yet, as the sounds of ocean waves crashing trapped in immortality within a sea shell. It's as though all emotions of every possible future have billowed...
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No matter where my travels take me, I will always bear witness to a sad truth: inherent in humanity, lies the ability for the ignorance of the few to effortlessly manipulate the minds of the many. It is this ability, and it's constant reinforcement of itself, that will forever continue to propel my lacking faith in humanity as a whole.

As it turns out, maybe...
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And it starts again. I totally thought I was beyond this, but I'm not. Every time I leave, I find myself just... shutting down. It's like for a few days my heart goes cold and my love ceases to exist. I don't know, I just want to get that off my chest.

I really wish I could figure out how to change this, but for...
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Very interesting weekend ahead. Probably filled with pictures. Let's see where life takes me now!

I came out of the darkness, with a bullet in my hand.



Been a curious few weeks. I feel things I forgot I had surfacing, emotions I had long since figured were just gone. I had a nice two hour drive a week ago to see my sister play the field hockey state championships, and found myself getting choked up and teary eyed when she...
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I need something to break this monotony. Badly. I love my family and all, but being around them ALL day is driving me nuts. Plus my lack of confirmation for my new job is stressing me out!

So yup, today's the day. The internet shuts down out here in merely thirty five minutes. After that, I hand in my room key, and head to the flight line where I'll end up waiting probably the whole day in a tent with 59 other people until I take off to head to Dubai. Maybe a few hours there, maybe a day, who knows. What...
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So in my day of super boredom, I ended up going through and deleted a bunch of people off my facebook list. A good number of people are generally good, and good to me. I have my new friends from the company, and my old friends from the army, and of course my blood family and my bond family. Then a bunch of people that...
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So yeah...

Even though I filed my paperwork to head home on the 4th, it seems that the cut back committee felt it necessary to bump my flight up to the 2nd, which is absolutely fine by me. Now I don't have to go to work and still get eight hours of pay, and my flights will be scheduled quicker, getting me home in one...
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"The new ideas emphasized interactions among continuously evolving forms. Some people talked about evolution as an arms race, by which they meant an ever-escalating interaction. A plant attacked by a pest evolves a pesticide in its leaves. The pest evolves to tolerate the pesticide, so the plant evolves a stronger pesticide. And so on.
Others talked about this pattern as co-evolution, in which two or...
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