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I am screaming in a vacuum !
Christmas sucked sooo bad, but I tried so hard not to let it..
Mom went into the hospital the tuesday before christmas and shes still not out...Bro called and told me she was dead...she's not.. but I was dumb enough to fall for his bullshit for just long enough to have it really gut me.

I didn't hear from many friends this holiday season soo least the bright side of that is that I know who my REAL friends are so yay..

Also again i'll say it Velvet_petal really is and has been such a wonderfully bright part of my life.. at this point I just wish I could pay her back for all her kindness...

Ok well i'm going to go back to wondering what to do with myself and life since for many reasons what i'm doing isn't working...but Just wanted to give ya a lil update...

So tell me good stuff...