The Epiphany (Parts One and two)
Before I tell you what it is let me give you a little history on the physicality of leeh. (Ha. That rhymed. I told you I was the best.) From age 0 to about 5 I was as cute as a button. At about 6 I got glasses. Big ones. And not cool ones like DMC. (I know some of you may have gone through the same thing. Im not asking for sympathy. Stay with me.) I was already skinny and awkward and now I had another excuse for people to make fun of me. (I wont get into the other ones.) I dealt with this from age 6 to 12. Then things changed. I was still awkward and had big ol glasses ( I couldnt afford the newer slimmer ones.) but now I was... husky. But this didnt last long because by the time I turned 16 I slimmed down. And then I got acne. Im not talking about normal teenage acne. Im talking,I looked like Freddy Kruger was my dad acne. So now Im a awkward, skinny, pimpley- faced kid. I always thought the acne would just go away on its own but it lasted (in its maximum capacity) until I was about 21. (Vanessa Williams is a saint.)
So, Here I am now, skinny and still a little awkward (but I m dealing with it.)
I said all that to say this: This is the most attractive Ill ever be. I need to use this to its full advantage. The problem is, I dont know what to do. When I look in the mirror some days, I still see Forest Whittaker. The idea that anyone could find me attractive is completely new to me. Its down right scary. I dont know how to act. Ive never been here before. I feel scared and disoriented.
I need to act fast because its only a matter of time before my hair starts falling out and I get a beer belly. Whats a brother to do?
Epiphany #2:
Life s a mutherfucker
I meet someone I care for but i cant touch her
This completely ruins the movie someone call the usher
Cause Ill always be your friend but never your lover
But my fingers are crossed for the latter
Maybe a year from now well look back in laugher
Wondering why all this worry even mattered
Dude youre flying across the country? I had to have her.
Youre the reason why all day I fantasize
I the reason you have bags under your pretty eyes
I used to laugh at silly people like you and I
Staying up all night talking to a stupid guy
you like an addiction I cant help
Yes i realize Im torturing myself
The epiphany is I dont need to miss you
My name is in the middle of yours, Im there with you.
I just realized after typing this that some of you might think this is about Caddy because of my last journal. Well, Ill have you know that she wants to marry someone else. And her reaction when she first saw the journal was I was expecting it to be longer. Punk ass. (But that was before she read it.)
OK, Fuck all this soft shit. Im going to look at boobies. And drink a beer. And watch sports or whatever else it is that guys do. Peace.
Before I tell you what it is let me give you a little history on the physicality of leeh. (Ha. That rhymed. I told you I was the best.) From age 0 to about 5 I was as cute as a button. At about 6 I got glasses. Big ones. And not cool ones like DMC. (I know some of you may have gone through the same thing. Im not asking for sympathy. Stay with me.) I was already skinny and awkward and now I had another excuse for people to make fun of me. (I wont get into the other ones.) I dealt with this from age 6 to 12. Then things changed. I was still awkward and had big ol glasses ( I couldnt afford the newer slimmer ones.) but now I was... husky. But this didnt last long because by the time I turned 16 I slimmed down. And then I got acne. Im not talking about normal teenage acne. Im talking,I looked like Freddy Kruger was my dad acne. So now Im a awkward, skinny, pimpley- faced kid. I always thought the acne would just go away on its own but it lasted (in its maximum capacity) until I was about 21. (Vanessa Williams is a saint.)
So, Here I am now, skinny and still a little awkward (but I m dealing with it.)
I said all that to say this: This is the most attractive Ill ever be. I need to use this to its full advantage. The problem is, I dont know what to do. When I look in the mirror some days, I still see Forest Whittaker. The idea that anyone could find me attractive is completely new to me. Its down right scary. I dont know how to act. Ive never been here before. I feel scared and disoriented.
I need to act fast because its only a matter of time before my hair starts falling out and I get a beer belly. Whats a brother to do?
Epiphany #2:
Life s a mutherfucker
I meet someone I care for but i cant touch her
This completely ruins the movie someone call the usher
Cause Ill always be your friend but never your lover
But my fingers are crossed for the latter
Maybe a year from now well look back in laugher
Wondering why all this worry even mattered
Dude youre flying across the country? I had to have her.
Youre the reason why all day I fantasize
I the reason you have bags under your pretty eyes
I used to laugh at silly people like you and I
Staying up all night talking to a stupid guy
you like an addiction I cant help
Yes i realize Im torturing myself
The epiphany is I dont need to miss you
My name is in the middle of yours, Im there with you.
I just realized after typing this that some of you might think this is about Caddy because of my last journal. Well, Ill have you know that she wants to marry someone else. And her reaction when she first saw the journal was I was expecting it to be longer. Punk ass. (But that was before she read it.)
OK, Fuck all this soft shit. Im going to look at boobies. And drink a beer. And watch sports or whatever else it is that guys do. Peace.
VIEW 23 of 23 COMMENTS
hey you... why are you so down on yourself
of course people think you're attractive
you're freakin crazyyyyy
so who was that about if it's not caddy?
how many chicks are you playin here on sg?
haha