never in a million years
I used to have the biggest crush on her
worse than the schoolboy type
that crush you keep at a distance
everyone knows about it
it's as obvious as the Sunday headlines
but you never suspect that they suspect.
you're never really as clever as you seem
not at all
transparently clear to all but
you
life in denial is something that's
felt by quarter-lifers, hipsters
and the like
how do you tell a stranger that they
are the world to you
do you even try
should you even try
never in a million years would someone
put themselves in that position
but i think she's worth it
i just wonder if she would say the same