I don't know why I am depressed today. Maybe it is because I can't seem to sleep all through the night or until it's somewhere near one in the morning. Maybe it is because I'm just reminded of all sorts of things that I don't have that I want because I think that somehow it will make me feel more accomplished or better. Today I just can't keep it at bay, reinforcing the knowledge that the depression is related to but not entirely caused by work. I haven't been at work for over a week. I have no responsibilities right now, yet I feel like curling up and sleeping until the end comes.
She comes tomorrow. Maybe that will make me feel better.