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My 95 year old grandmaother is dying. She hasn't been able to recognize me he last few yers. She can't see well enough or hear well enough. It's a ood thing. She's at the point where she wakes up in the middle of the night and asks if Georrge, her husband, is there. George is long gone and she still knows it. She's asking if...
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yesterday was silent yet filled wih playful tensions and understanding. But this morning I am late for work, and I feel like like dropping this exoskeleton and turning to mush right now. what a good time to dig deper. Or maybe just have a cup of coffee.

Sun and dust cloud my
vision, and fill me, mildly,
with happy madness.

I actually like this one. Not bad for a Love Haiku, no? Here's another on the same person:

She had a smile that
kings, princes and other beasts
once fought wars over

Boom!

One wonders why we don't have pop songs like this. But there's no sense in lamenting what isn't there.

Ayumi Hamsaki

INSPIRE

Giving a smile fit for each situation
Saying plausible words
I go blank
It's about time to end up pretending to be impassive

*No one can live alone
No one can live without love
Though they are matters of course
Now I keenly...
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The visceral beat of desire marches forward in this light air. The silence of myself is like a sign that reads "Don't feed the animal."

I think of M3 and how primed I would be to deal with the symphony in her head. The only expressions it knows are like a monster haolding a sledgehammer in one hand and a knife in the other. She...
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- Today I have felt the "No" of my head give way.
- Inside each of us is not only the knowledge that comes with the apple, but also the knowledge that comes from tasting the supermango.
- I tasted the most beutiful of supermangos two nights ago

Errands to run, - duty, debt, shelter, sustainence and love. It will all be wrapped up in...
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for some reason I awoke at 5:30 this morning. I don't have to work until 11:30 so I wanted to stay in bed. But I awoke because I had a nighmare that no matter how much I tried to shake it just kep putting itself into my head as tried to fall back asleep. It wasn't blody or gory. It was one of those things...
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Or scared little girls trying to be indepenent and hard. But who can't step out of their safe day dream. Did you ever just learn to acceept being human? That you have human needs? That it's okay to go with it, 'cuz you're good enough to handle it if it goes bad - even if it goes really bad? Even the dirt, even when it's...
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It's a perfect night to go to bed without covers. Naked. With a book and a warm combination of flesh and bone.

I'm just enjoying the smells around me lately. spring, the rain, the smell of wood stain and "antique" oil finish. In this simple space and silence every sensation, whether a scent, scrape or muscle ache, feels like an easy grace.

This seems to be one of those days... a coworker asked if there was a full moon tonoght. no almost the opposite in fact. She clenched her face and gave a ligh shake of her head. As if her head were one of those games, where one tries to get the silver balls to land in the pre-cut holes in the board. I don't think...
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