igobymanynames

a bottomless kiss and getting fucked into emptiness

"Socrates himself has just been sick for a long time..."
--Socrates

By the way, I hate the internet.

Quite succinctly at the bar he said -- There's language and religion that keeps us from thinking that we're animals.

wrapped in red sheets cool air on my skin, tired eyes and smiling. But i still can't sleep. Too much caffeine today or too much to take of along with the nagging feeling that something will go wrong. If it's what I think it is, I'm cocked and loaded ready to take of the safety and let it rip. But still, one can't account for...
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I found it! That's the spot That's my way.

I could tell you about the relationship between zen and pooping and how that really isn't responsible for my mood today, but if I were insane and found signs everywhere all around me like once upon a time, I would say that shitting is truly a spiritual experience. Further that flashbacks that make your heart race...
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I love Sunday mornings more consistently than I love any other event in my life right now. I yearn for Sunday morning drifting in and out listening to NPR - which is becoming my greatest source of cultural and intellectual stimulation lately.

Coin Locker Babies by Ryu Murakami is pleasing me greatly right now. First off, the story is original. Second, even though some of...
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after seeing someone twice and talking to them on the phone twice over 8 days soemone decided they could not talk to me because they were too involved. Then today I woke up and had 6 text messages on my phone. All very psychotic and nasty. At 5:30 I began receiving more of them.

Here's a sample:
"You're sucha coward. Shame letting those brains go...
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So here's the crap I wrote this morning before work, before the cold medication took effect
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My eyes get hot then
wet. I cry for no reason
I can detect except,
maybe, for the cement walls
sheltering this fire.
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Memories Unstilled.
Bleed me beyond the frenzy
until I am propelled
to the germinated seed of
our ancient humanity.
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fuck they're pretentious. If...
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Woof! Woof!" he said. "Woof!Woof!Woof!Woof!"
-Henry Miller

Wow.

Too much information? get over it.

What a night. I couldn't eat all day yesterday. I just munch on pretzels. It felt like something was sitting there eating away at my stomch the whole day. All I thought of was escape, but nothing engaged me. Then there was M who finally made me eat. M is in love now and really it's good for me...
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- I found an old picture in the pocket of my coat. An old pin-up photograph from mabe the 50's? Who knows exactly. But I had forgotten that it was given to me at last week. I pulled it out at work and was completely surprised. A guilty smile ran all over my face. I'll post it once I straighten it out. It got bent...
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