See, my day started out pretty nice (even though it started out at 5:30am... ahem). There were pleasant words, bad jokes, and then I enjoyed laying in the bed half asleep until around 8am when I had to get up to pee. I sang in the shower (Babes in Toyland - Hello).
And then I read my email. I have unknowingly hurt a friend very badly. There is a sour situation coming to a head whether I am ready to deal with it or not... and of course, I'm not. So I have felt remorse and dread all day long.
I bought furniture, and it's beautiful, but I couldn't get cheered up. It's just the furniture I can sit on while I think about what a bad friend I've been.
So then I got lonely. I stayed lonely until around 4 when I went to have coffee with my friend Tim. That worked for a while. We talked about snakes and mullets and then went to see a bad movie, which was my suggestion, so we're even now for the time he picked Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Ugh. (For the record, do not go see Failure to Launch. Unless seeing Jerry Van Dyk's bare nekkid ass is on your "to do" list. Seriously. I wish someone had warned me too.)
And now I'm back. Still in limbo, wondering if my reply has been read, if it was enough to make things right. There are some things I should be angry about too, but now is not the time to address that. Now is the time to apologize for my mistakes, and be a friend to someone who needs one as much as I do.
It's very quiet here and I need a new bed. The one I've made isn't fit to lie in.
And then I read my email. I have unknowingly hurt a friend very badly. There is a sour situation coming to a head whether I am ready to deal with it or not... and of course, I'm not. So I have felt remorse and dread all day long.
I bought furniture, and it's beautiful, but I couldn't get cheered up. It's just the furniture I can sit on while I think about what a bad friend I've been.
So then I got lonely. I stayed lonely until around 4 when I went to have coffee with my friend Tim. That worked for a while. We talked about snakes and mullets and then went to see a bad movie, which was my suggestion, so we're even now for the time he picked Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Ugh. (For the record, do not go see Failure to Launch. Unless seeing Jerry Van Dyk's bare nekkid ass is on your "to do" list. Seriously. I wish someone had warned me too.)
And now I'm back. Still in limbo, wondering if my reply has been read, if it was enough to make things right. There are some things I should be angry about too, but now is not the time to address that. Now is the time to apologize for my mistakes, and be a friend to someone who needs one as much as I do.
It's very quiet here and I need a new bed. The one I've made isn't fit to lie in.
just give it time blow over and try to pick up the pieces
Friends and people change. Lives go seperate directions. People say things that they don't really mean, or intend. They may not see it, and you may not see it, but others do. Being inside the situation can put blinders up on both sides.
Take a deep breath, remove yourself from the situation for a little while, if only mentally. See the steps that you've taken to ensure that you haven't lost someone dear to you.
If you see that there is solidity behind her cutting remarks, then do what you have to to right the wrong. If not, then try to explain the situation on your end to them. Sometimes it takes a different point of view for someone to realize that they have been mistaken.
Keep a stiff upper chomper, kiddo. If you need to vent, I'll try harder next time to let you get it out.