I look at myself and it just depresses me.
not hard to see why I am still alone, not hard to see why that won't change.
no matter what anybody says nobody is ever attracted to you based on personality, not that mine is anything to be proud of anyways.
this whole stream of thought is getting so old now, I'm making myself sick of saying it now.
oh hey, I found a picture of me on the site wanna see it?
ME, guess which one I am.
it's cold outside, it's cold inside,
I've for sure lost any optimism I had, now everything just runs together day in day out.
eMotive is growing on me though, so I guess that's good.
did you hear about that guy that drove onto the train tracks in Newbury and got himself killed and killed 7 others, how fucked up is that? I can understand the motivation behind wanting to kill ones self, but at least choose someway that won't hurt anybody else around you.
mind you, how did a 200 tonne train get chucked off it's track by a car that was less than 2 tonnes? I don't understand that bit.
I'd like to get some nice email if anybody wants to send me any. use the contact tab if you like.
I'm not really looking forward to another holiday season on my own, last year was tough, Clare had gone the dog was still really young and making loads of mess everywhere and I did'nt get so much as a phone call the whole month.
I suspect this year will be pretty much the same really.
I think on my way home from work tonight I am going to get some firewood and make a real fire in the fireplace, I really quite like the idea of doing that.
note to self, stop drinking coffee and coke cause you can't sleep at night you stupid bugger.
well enough crap from me. blah blah blah,
if you have loved ones, make sure you remind them that you care and why. - this is important.
not hard to see why I am still alone, not hard to see why that won't change.
no matter what anybody says nobody is ever attracted to you based on personality, not that mine is anything to be proud of anyways.
this whole stream of thought is getting so old now, I'm making myself sick of saying it now.
oh hey, I found a picture of me on the site wanna see it?
ME, guess which one I am.
it's cold outside, it's cold inside,
I've for sure lost any optimism I had, now everything just runs together day in day out.
eMotive is growing on me though, so I guess that's good.
did you hear about that guy that drove onto the train tracks in Newbury and got himself killed and killed 7 others, how fucked up is that? I can understand the motivation behind wanting to kill ones self, but at least choose someway that won't hurt anybody else around you.
mind you, how did a 200 tonne train get chucked off it's track by a car that was less than 2 tonnes? I don't understand that bit.
I'd like to get some nice email if anybody wants to send me any. use the contact tab if you like.
I'm not really looking forward to another holiday season on my own, last year was tough, Clare had gone the dog was still really young and making loads of mess everywhere and I did'nt get so much as a phone call the whole month.
I suspect this year will be pretty much the same really.
I think on my way home from work tonight I am going to get some firewood and make a real fire in the fireplace, I really quite like the idea of doing that.
note to self, stop drinking coffee and coke cause you can't sleep at night you stupid bugger.
well enough crap from me. blah blah blah,
if you have loved ones, make sure you remind them that you care and why. - this is important.
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Regarding your sadness, I'm sure it's not hopeless for you. There's someone out there for everyone, I'm sure of that. If you're sad and you know something needs to change then MAKE IT CHANGE. Nothing is impossible my friend.