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things feel a little unsettled right now. i'm anxious about everything, but i can rationalize that nothing is really *wrong*. generalized anxiety is the best.

it might help if i had a cute girl to make out with. -sigh-


heh.

it's so upsetting when you think you're going to get back a tax refund and then you get the envelope and you end up oweing over 400$.

and i wish it didn't make me so upset, but it does. it's like i just lost 800$, even though i know that doesn't make sense.

this certainly isn't making me feel any less guilty about the tattoo...
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the tag 'cutter' interests me. i noticed it today on Starla's new set and it lead me to search for other sets that have also been tagged that way. i wonder who decides the scars are self incflicted - and i suppose if the various models whose sets have it in the tags list haven't removed it then it's true that they are self...
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i got accepted into the MA English program i applied for.


it's fucking crazy. my application was a-listed out of 64 other applicants.

eeesh.

i think an important thing i should try to learn is that not everyone deserves second chances.

how many times will i let the same people do the same stuff?

too many, apparently.

i officially have about 75% of my christmas 'shopping' done!

that may deserve some kind of red star, i would think.

apparently, this year my dad turns 50. half a century. it seems like an insane thing to me, for someone to be alive for that long. though i do know people who are older than that, for some reason my dad is forever about 30 in my mind. always 30. but apparently, this year, he turned 50. i'm fairly sure that his birthday was yesterday....
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i'm addicted
to yarn and knitting needles

knit one, pearl one, repeat
multicoloured organized chaos
turning a ball into a use
creating what was not there

it's all about control
if i can't organize my life
i might as well
navigate my way though
a scary knotted mess

due to a recent evening's conversation concerning the state of several girls preference to shave or not to shave...and the results seeming to leave me on the outside opinion, i decided to do something fairly spontaneous while in the shower tonight.

it's pretty funny.

today was a strange and restless day. i woke up earlier than i thought i would and got ready to go into work on my day off due to unforseen circumstances and then it turned out i didn't need to go in at all. i think that completely threw me off. i didn't know what the hell i wanted to do all day long. basically...
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