can't sleep so I wrote a bunch of bull shit.
seems bullshit is what I am good at.
as i am good at nothing else.
How do you say sorry to the ones you've hurt
when you are hurting, deep down inside
You stay up late every night crying to sleep
and you just want to run away and hide
You can't forgive yourself because it hurts
you can't bear the thought of hurting anyone
You are all tore up inside, ready to give up
you want to just stop, turn, and run, run, run
But you realize you can't, you can't hide
the heartaches and pain will follow you
You don't know how to forgive yourself
so the torment just starts piercing through
You hear voices in your head calling you names
"You're nothing, a liar, and a failure too
You should just give up, no one really cares"
there is so much pain, even I can't construe
So to all those I have hurt in my past
I am sorry, please forgive me, please
I just hate myself at times, I want out
I only wish this heartache will soon cease
I am a terrible person, I have done many wrong
I get scared, so I run, and try to turn away
But then I begin to realize, it's always with me
so the only thing left to do is just pray
I need to focus on God and let Him help me through
I need to repent, and then the healing will begin
But until I can release all my pain I've always hidden
So with these tears that are buried in my heart
I can no longer let the pain penetrate through
I feel leaving is what I must do
So good bye for now, and please pray for me
I can no longer do this on my own anymore
So please, for those who I have hurt before
if you choose to hate me and never talk to me again
Know that my heart is broken because of all this
and I will never forget how I hurt all my friends
Where is that man I once adored?
So strong, with a generosity that would overwhelm me
I watched you sleep
I watched you breathe
And it filled me with happiness beyond explanation
I felt your touch and couldn't help the tingle
I kissed your soft lips and tasted heaven
Lying in your arms was like being taken to world of unknown happiness
I wanted the world to know what you were to me
I wanted to replace the morning cockerel
To shout out the love I felt for you
But, alas, this joy has been sapped from my being
Why did you find it so easy to cast me aside?
Help me to understand...
Did I mean so little to you?
Did you not feel my love?
Did I not fulfill your desires?
But Im taking your love from me,
You've stolen more than just my emotions
For you have taken my very will to live
I cannot bother with the trivialities of life such as sustenance
I have no need of nourishment, warmth or affection
You have taken my ability to live and want life
Tomorrow is a word that means nothing to me now
For how can I face another day like today.
seems bullshit is what I am good at.
as i am good at nothing else.
How do you say sorry to the ones you've hurt
when you are hurting, deep down inside
You stay up late every night crying to sleep
and you just want to run away and hide
You can't forgive yourself because it hurts
you can't bear the thought of hurting anyone
You are all tore up inside, ready to give up
you want to just stop, turn, and run, run, run
But you realize you can't, you can't hide
the heartaches and pain will follow you
You don't know how to forgive yourself
so the torment just starts piercing through
You hear voices in your head calling you names
"You're nothing, a liar, and a failure too
You should just give up, no one really cares"
there is so much pain, even I can't construe
So to all those I have hurt in my past
I am sorry, please forgive me, please
I just hate myself at times, I want out
I only wish this heartache will soon cease
I am a terrible person, I have done many wrong
I get scared, so I run, and try to turn away
But then I begin to realize, it's always with me
so the only thing left to do is just pray
I need to focus on God and let Him help me through
I need to repent, and then the healing will begin
But until I can release all my pain I've always hidden
So with these tears that are buried in my heart
I can no longer let the pain penetrate through
I feel leaving is what I must do
So good bye for now, and please pray for me
I can no longer do this on my own anymore
So please, for those who I have hurt before
if you choose to hate me and never talk to me again
Know that my heart is broken because of all this
and I will never forget how I hurt all my friends
Where is that man I once adored?
So strong, with a generosity that would overwhelm me
I watched you sleep
I watched you breathe
And it filled me with happiness beyond explanation
I felt your touch and couldn't help the tingle
I kissed your soft lips and tasted heaven
Lying in your arms was like being taken to world of unknown happiness
I wanted the world to know what you were to me
I wanted to replace the morning cockerel
To shout out the love I felt for you
But, alas, this joy has been sapped from my being
Why did you find it so easy to cast me aside?
Help me to understand...
Did I mean so little to you?
Did you not feel my love?
Did I not fulfill your desires?
But Im taking your love from me,
You've stolen more than just my emotions
For you have taken my very will to live
I cannot bother with the trivialities of life such as sustenance
I have no need of nourishment, warmth or affection
You have taken my ability to live and want life
Tomorrow is a word that means nothing to me now
For how can I face another day like today.