I am not a knight in shining armor. I am more of the squire who makes him look good. I am not the GQ wanna be cookie cutter model. I am not prince charming yet I am prince charming. I am Cerino of a sort. Honestly I am just me. Never to pretend to be more than I am nor will I be any less. I am wysiwyg, the real thing, the nice guy. I am the inside of what most say they want but the outside of that which is unwanted.
So is it a curse or a blessing? Of that I am not sure.
I cannot deny who I am nor would I want to become one of the others. The other are only worried about themselves and what they can get from someone else. Of course there is always something anyone would want to change about themselves but if it meant having to become shallow and not being able to reach out to help another, then the price is to high.
You may ask what you want, and the answer will be honest. You just have to prepare yourself for the answer, it may not be what you want to hear. Always be honest with yourself, even if it is hard to be honest with others.
Do not assume honesty as weakness. It is a lot more difficult to be honest in the face of a great friend, than to lie to them and act like you don't care.
So is it a curse or a blessing? Of that I am not sure.
I cannot deny who I am nor would I want to become one of the others. The other are only worried about themselves and what they can get from someone else. Of course there is always something anyone would want to change about themselves but if it meant having to become shallow and not being able to reach out to help another, then the price is to high.
You may ask what you want, and the answer will be honest. You just have to prepare yourself for the answer, it may not be what you want to hear. Always be honest with yourself, even if it is hard to be honest with others.
Do not assume honesty as weakness. It is a lot more difficult to be honest in the face of a great friend, than to lie to them and act like you don't care.
And its not that I'm unhappy. Its just stressful, because its a long distance thing. So yea...its not just him stressing me out, its work and school and other little things holding me back right now from BEING happy with him where he is. That's all. That's why I said I hope it works out positively soon.