i'm feeling torn and nostalgic. this is because i am considering getting my hair cut tomorrow. considering getting it cut.. reasonably short, at least in comparison to how long it is now.
the pros: i will have less fucking around to do with straightening irons and stressing out over bits sticking out or bits being too curly here or there. and i sorta think i'll look pretty hot.
the cons: for a long time i've been growing my hair out so that it was an even length of longness without being mullety. i'm scared that i'll miss it, and that i wont like it once it's gone. sure, it'll grow back, and i can start over if it ends up being crap. but will it? i don't know if i just notice it more because it's longer and therefore occupies more space on the floor of the bathroom/in the drain of the shower/clogging up my vacuum cleaner, or whether i really am just losing plenty. by no means do i look like i'm thinning out. but my dad is pretty thin. and i have that widows peak hairline thing. stupid hair anxiety.
and at the moment the only positive i am seeing in going to the ball is that i have ideas of how good i will look.. because my suit wearing occasions have been very limited throughout my lifetime. but i'm scared my shyness will not hold me in good stead with outgoing personalities, drunken behaviour, and potential jealousy after having recieved no attention. and if i get too drunk i don't want to be making a cock out of myself in front of a whole lot of people i don't know, in a strange town, trying to get back to somewhere i don't know the directions to.
the pros: i will have less fucking around to do with straightening irons and stressing out over bits sticking out or bits being too curly here or there. and i sorta think i'll look pretty hot.
the cons: for a long time i've been growing my hair out so that it was an even length of longness without being mullety. i'm scared that i'll miss it, and that i wont like it once it's gone. sure, it'll grow back, and i can start over if it ends up being crap. but will it? i don't know if i just notice it more because it's longer and therefore occupies more space on the floor of the bathroom/in the drain of the shower/clogging up my vacuum cleaner, or whether i really am just losing plenty. by no means do i look like i'm thinning out. but my dad is pretty thin. and i have that widows peak hairline thing. stupid hair anxiety.
and at the moment the only positive i am seeing in going to the ball is that i have ideas of how good i will look.. because my suit wearing occasions have been very limited throughout my lifetime. but i'm scared my shyness will not hold me in good stead with outgoing personalities, drunken behaviour, and potential jealousy after having recieved no attention. and if i get too drunk i don't want to be making a cock out of myself in front of a whole lot of people i don't know, in a strange town, trying to get back to somewhere i don't know the directions to.