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I have some explaining to do. This has been a shitty week and I've been a little emotional, more than usual anyway. First, my ex-girlfriend almost died in the hospital after she had an episode from her pancreatitis. She says she's in the very high risk percentage and wants me to know that she loves me and still wants to be friends. She also wants to keep having sex even though we broke up. I think this is a bad idea for many reasons.
1. I don't need sex but if I'm going to get it, I'm not sleeping with my ex-girlfriend who is still in love with me.
2. It will end eventually resulting in someone being hurt, again.
3. I don't use people like that.

Second, I had an interview for a job that went great but I was informed that they were going with someone else. This pissed me off. So I was bummed about that too. Oh well, gotta keep trying I guess.

Third, I went to see NIN on Friday with a good friend. We've always just been friends and she's never given me any indication of wanting more. Then after the concert, she kisses me and wants me to go to Portland for the weekend. I said no and that I'm not interested now, and she went completely nuts and said she never wants to see me again and left. Women! ahhhhhhhh

Let's see what else? Oh yeah, I almost killed a guy on I-5. He was on a motorcycyle going 75 mph through downtown Seattle when I suppossedly cut in front of him. He comes along side of me and tries to hit my window. So,,,,I swerved into him making him loose control a little and slow down. Fucker then flipped me off and sped ahead. I think Jane's Addiction said it best.
some people should die
That's just unconscienscous knowledge

And finally, this shit just happend about an hour ago. I was gasing up at the 76 station close to my apartment. Across the street this couple starts fighting. She gets in her car and the guy looses it. He starts banging on her windows and windshield as she drives away. He then jumps on her hood and yells "Fuck you, you goddamn cunt. I'm going to fucking kill you. You want to run me over you cunt. Fucking kill me bitch because I'm going to kill you." Nice guy, huh? The gas station attendant ran and called the cops. This guy then jumps in his truck and cuts across the gas station endangering people's lives and flying down the street after her as she drives away. Cops get there late and I have to describe what I saw. I hope this guy wakes up some day in a pool of his own blood with his dick cut off and shoved up his own ass. But I digress, anyway, so I've been an asshole magnet all weekend. Are there any nice people out there? I just want some "no strings attached" cuddling. Not sex, no blowjobs, handjobs,just cuddling and chilling out. My head can't take much more.
Sorry to ramble, this week should be better. I have a date on Friday with a very beautiful girl who seems really cool. Let's hope her skeletons are minimal.

PS-I still love SG. I'm sorry to see some of the classic girls go but don't be fooled, there are still amazing beauties to be found here.
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