hunneydrop

okay, this may seem wierd to a lot of people, but i am very good friends with many of my ex's. none more-so though than my first love, P. we speak regurlarly; at lest weekly, but dont get to see each other that much as he lives quite far away at uni - plus the fact that i dont think it'd be good to spend too much time with an ex - perhaps stunting future development with other potential beaus...

so, i went down to visit him at his halls of residence - i should probably point out at this point that he is 27 and has just been at uni for a V long time, i am not a) a cradle snatcher or b) so emotionally inept that i only found my first boyfriend aged 25 or something... anyway, we have always had a very strong connection and been able to talk about pretty much anything to each other - a shoulder to cry on and really good friends.. however, when i went down this time i felt as if it should be goodbye...

there was nothing that happened which made me not want to see him again, quite the opposite really, as he is always and has always been, the kindest, most considerate and caring bloke you could ever meet.. but i feel like i must break my tie to him to move on - i think i use him as an emotional crutch too much perhaps.. this is the first thing i dont want to talk to him about though..

think i will leave it a few weeks and see if i feel the same then...