*Sigh
Wow its been a while since I last posted a blog on here. I've been super busy with school, I am constantly studying and, at one point, had about 3 to 4 clinicals a week. Well thankfully my class and clinicals are almost complete. Yet as of right now Im doubting myself more and more every day. Dont get me wrong, I love school and all, but its like....Some days I feel great, I feel like I'm going to be an awesome paramedic, then other days I basically feel like I've been kicked in the nuts, and that I dont know if I can be a paramedic.
My internship starts in two months and as of right now I'm sweating bullets over it. Basically, a paramedic internship is 250 hours at either an ambulance company or a fire department. Now during that internship, I would be the lead medic on every single call.......and that my friends scares the hell out of me. Again some days I feel like i could run through that internship with no problems, while others I feel like I'm going to fail big time.
Grade wise I'm doing great. I have a 91% overall and I kick ass at all of the skills (intubating, IV's, drawing medication, ECG's, IO injections, ect) and I've done pretty well on my simulations. Its just applying all of those skills and bookwork into field work that has me on edge.
Thankfully, spring break starts next friday and I will finally have some time to relax and gather my thoughts. All and all I really hope I can get through this without having any regrets. In the end, I did not come this far, to fail now.......
Sorry this blog is emo
Wow its been a while since I last posted a blog on here. I've been super busy with school, I am constantly studying and, at one point, had about 3 to 4 clinicals a week. Well thankfully my class and clinicals are almost complete. Yet as of right now Im doubting myself more and more every day. Dont get me wrong, I love school and all, but its like....Some days I feel great, I feel like I'm going to be an awesome paramedic, then other days I basically feel like I've been kicked in the nuts, and that I dont know if I can be a paramedic.
My internship starts in two months and as of right now I'm sweating bullets over it. Basically, a paramedic internship is 250 hours at either an ambulance company or a fire department. Now during that internship, I would be the lead medic on every single call.......and that my friends scares the hell out of me. Again some days I feel like i could run through that internship with no problems, while others I feel like I'm going to fail big time.
Grade wise I'm doing great. I have a 91% overall and I kick ass at all of the skills (intubating, IV's, drawing medication, ECG's, IO injections, ect) and I've done pretty well on my simulations. Its just applying all of those skills and bookwork into field work that has me on edge.
Thankfully, spring break starts next friday and I will finally have some time to relax and gather my thoughts. All and all I really hope I can get through this without having any regrets. In the end, I did not come this far, to fail now.......
Sorry this blog is emo
zarphin:
Yea, You'll do fine though, get out there, and feel the fire, and you'll get your game face on, and away you go. If you're doing that well in school, the people out there who have emergencies could use you. I've had plenty of paramedics come through my life, and some of them are severely shitty. One of my good friends does it now down here in kzoo, he was an army medic too, over in iraq. If You want I can ask him if its cool to email him. He's not on SG yet, tho he knows of it, and should be. He's a good guy, might help ya to talk to someone thats been doing it for years, but is only 30. still young at heart. let me know. Otherwise, hope you can make it in april, I'm looking forward to meeting you. Totally get the busy thing tho, schools gotta come first. take care man.
hungoverbear:
Hey thanks man. Thankfully things have gotten a little better at school, I feel more confident and from what I've been told our internships wont drill us as bad as I think they will. I dont know if i can make it the 16th because I dont get out of work until 1pm. But I will for sure hang out with you guys soon.