humanxile

It's sometime in 2005 (i think), some new girl at church (whom I knew a few years back)....
Her father dies from an aneurysm...
(Whole story short)
They are having dinner when the dad says he has a headache so he is going to go to bed....
5 minutes later the wife walks in and lays next to him... Thats when he gets a stroke.....
They call 911 he is rushed to the hospital....
They do what they have to do and run tests on him...
The next day about late afternoon.... They inform the wife that he had an aneurysm....
So he spent 3 weeks in a coma till he finally gave in....
Now I didnt really talk to htis girl but I still went twice a week to see the father....
Well after they disconnected the life support he passed away....

Now, one of my friends saw through out the hospital visits we started to talk he tried to use a guilt trip on me... We'll he found out that she wanted to learn to play drums and had asked me before to teach her... SInce she saw me jamming out with a friend once... I denied but he was all like dude her dad just died, she just wants a distraction and you deny her that.... I was suckered into teaching her since I also just had my best friend and only person whom I cared for die....

Blah, blah blah... Anywho, from my perception she grew attached to me and wanted to get real close... you know... She told me and I quote "Ever since the hospital you seemed like the kind of guy I wanted to get to know, your outgoing and somewhat of a rebel" "I like that"... Didnt read into it then cause I didnt care much...

Well I played in her band quit cause she got to over protective and basically made me her property... So I ran before I fell in deeper into her hole... (I know sounds dirty but not meant like that)...

Now to end this cause Im basically writting a book here....

I left church due to rejection and disapproval of my Alt lifestyle.... And she hated that as well as other key factors.... So now she rants about me. hates the fact that her cousin and I hang out.... Can't stand seeing me...

Funny thing is that I think I like her now... I can't stop thinking about her, how her nice butt fills her pants... The Riot Girl attitude she had... The secretary look she had when she went to church... Her love for music as well for playing drums... I mean I miss her bitching daily and her weekly fits for everything I did... I think she could have been my soul mate but I let her slip through my hands like water...

Why does this happen?
Why does God torture us with an emotion that only causes pain?
Why are men so blind and ignorant to see when a girl likes them?
Why? Why? Why?

Love fucken stinks, but for some reason I want to wear it as my fragrance....