humanxile

I know not many read my blogs.... But I need to vent....

Today at work everything was cool until the Liqour store owners son comes in and kills the mood...
He thinks he can come in and boss me around.... His mom is my boss so technically he is no one....
So I had to give him some attitude... This has been going on for sometime now.... And its pissing me off...
He doesnt even know me very well but yet he always ticks me off...
Now Im a calm person due to the fact that I believe in Satyagraha....

Wikipedia-
Satyagraha (Sanskrit: satygraha) is a philosophy and practice of nonviolent resistance developed by Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi (also known as "Mahatma" Gandhi).

Now, I am a true believer and always try to solve things peacefully....
Problem is that I have only been practicing this for 4 years... All the others years I was one violent piece of shit.... I tend to bottle things up... But as Ian said in Bottled Violence it can only go so far....
So now in fear of lossing my job since for now Its all I have.... Past choices have me stuck with shitty jobs for now.... Waiting for my chance for redemption.... But none so far....

So for now I stand my ground without pounding him to it.... I sometimes look the other way from my belief and intimidate or inject fear into a person.... I have used some violence, not proud but it seems thats is the only thing that works... So for now its ok.... I put on my headphones and listen to Hatebreed, Suicide SIlence or some Rise Against to remind me that shit like him aint worth it.... But soon his day will come...
Sorry for such a negative blog.... But we need to vent sometimes to maintain order in our heads...
Hope everyone else had a better day....