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I haven't worked since June. I haven't gotten payed since August. I need a job. The problem I go on interviews don't get the job, get depressed. Get depressed find it hard to look for a job. Wife asks me to look for a job, get anxious. Get anxious, can't search for job comfortably. It's a cycle. Can't talk to wife about this, she cries. I feel like shit.

I love my wife. Now more than ever. That's how it works right? More time together more lovin? We are having a baby in four months. I can't fucking believe it. This makes me so happy. We are having a little boy (I think I secretly wanted a boy more) don't tell anyone. We will call him Parker after Spiderman. I am a dork and my lovely wife allows it. She doesn't embrace it, but allows it.

I am quiting smoking and I need to loose weight. These two things are normally counter active. I quit smoking gain wait, keep smoking maintain weight. But now I am trying to do both. My doctor tells me that my cholesterol is high, my blood pressure is fine. My wife thinks my doctor is telling me falsehoods so that I freak out and fix my weight. I am about 80 pounds heavier then I want to be. Oh well wish me luck.

The anniversary of the worst day of my life is coming up. Hopefully I don't dwell. I don't have time. Bad things happen to good people. This happened to be the worst of things to happen to me. I just don't want to think about it. Maybe I wont.