I'm not in a very good mood so I thought I'd take it out on the cyber world. Right now I want to quit everything. I hate school, my lab is pissing me off, and I want to live alone.
First off, I don't like my classes. I usually find cog sci classes to be very interesting but these are not. I'm burned out and its only third week. I'm sick of the bull shit assignments. At this point, I'm over school. Fuck it. The fact that I hate San Diego only makes this worse. My social deviance class is pretty cool but all the bull shit assignments for my other classes are making it hard for me to do well on my paper. I kind of want to change to a sociology major but what the hell would I do with it once I graduated? Fuck you cog sci department, your core classes are LAME!
Second, I want to quit the lab. Some of the kids are driving me absolutely insane (Kt as my witness). The kids aren't as bad as some of the researchers though. I'm so goddamn sick of babysitting everyone and making sure people actually show up. Few people actually give adequate availability putting a large burden on the rest of us to pick up their shifts. There are three people who have yet to be available AT ALL this quarter, one of them always tries to laugh it off when she seems me, assuring me she'll post availability that night. She still hasn't. I was in the lab all weekend and couldn't even find one person to help me out on Sunday. Thanks guys, no really. I think tomorrow I am going to talk to Dr. Pineda and see if he'll email everyone for me about how many hours they need to put in and all. In addition to not being available, a lot of researchers don't post their schedules in time for me to do the scheduling. That means I am re-doing the schedule pretty much every day in addition to all the extra shifts I'm picking up. Even if I was getting paid this wouldn't be worth it.
Last, I want to live alone. I love my room mates but I'm sick of people right now. I'm sick of the judgment, the obligatory parties, etc. I don't really feel like getting into all the details right now but I just want to be alone for awhile. My roomies probably have nothing to do with it. I'm just pissed off about a lot of things right now.
I was hoping this blog would make me feel better but it didn't. Sorry to those of you who actually read it.
First off, I don't like my classes. I usually find cog sci classes to be very interesting but these are not. I'm burned out and its only third week. I'm sick of the bull shit assignments. At this point, I'm over school. Fuck it. The fact that I hate San Diego only makes this worse. My social deviance class is pretty cool but all the bull shit assignments for my other classes are making it hard for me to do well on my paper. I kind of want to change to a sociology major but what the hell would I do with it once I graduated? Fuck you cog sci department, your core classes are LAME!
Second, I want to quit the lab. Some of the kids are driving me absolutely insane (Kt as my witness). The kids aren't as bad as some of the researchers though. I'm so goddamn sick of babysitting everyone and making sure people actually show up. Few people actually give adequate availability putting a large burden on the rest of us to pick up their shifts. There are three people who have yet to be available AT ALL this quarter, one of them always tries to laugh it off when she seems me, assuring me she'll post availability that night. She still hasn't. I was in the lab all weekend and couldn't even find one person to help me out on Sunday. Thanks guys, no really. I think tomorrow I am going to talk to Dr. Pineda and see if he'll email everyone for me about how many hours they need to put in and all. In addition to not being available, a lot of researchers don't post their schedules in time for me to do the scheduling. That means I am re-doing the schedule pretty much every day in addition to all the extra shifts I'm picking up. Even if I was getting paid this wouldn't be worth it.
Last, I want to live alone. I love my room mates but I'm sick of people right now. I'm sick of the judgment, the obligatory parties, etc. I don't really feel like getting into all the details right now but I just want to be alone for awhile. My roomies probably have nothing to do with it. I'm just pissed off about a lot of things right now.
I was hoping this blog would make me feel better but it didn't. Sorry to those of you who actually read it.
Maybe you should tell Dr. P how upset you are about all of the lab stuff. You've been working really hard for him and I imagine he would be upset to lose you or know that you were feeling that way. Could you at least talk to Oriana (I am so sorry if I spelled her name wrong) and see if there is any way she could help? I feel like mom giving you weird advise. I know I am not in your place so obviously it's going to be your call. In my lab I am lucky to have such good people, but also to feel comfortable telling Alex if someone is not doing their share. Oh yeah, and no kids.
As far as school. you are so close you may as well hang in there.
I hope you feel better Hotsie. I'm around if you need to chat/rant.
P.S. You are a limp dick pansy.