Well, yesterday wasn't completely horrible. I went out and hung out at hypnogogic's and ladybelmont's. I'm so in love with Lilly, Hypno's DJing skills, their house, them, it's awesome. It was just a good night, so thanks all for that.
I got used and abused as a cuddle slut as well. .
Today I woke up, and then woke up again in a different bed. I helped my mom with yardwork. That helped a little with the purposelessness, but I'm still really hurting from not having any set thing to do. I don't feel like I'm being productive or efficient. I need a job so I can get off the internet all day and actually go out and do things. I want a routine. I want to have breakfast every morning, and a salad for lunch, either homemade, or at some quaint little bistro or something with my coworkers. I want to meet other engineers. That'll be good, when I can do that. I also have to move out of my mom's house, that'll make it feel a lot more like I'm actually doing something. Cause right now, it just seems like I'm mooching and idling--and that's not good for me.
Nuhhhhh.
I got used and abused as a cuddle slut as well. .
Today I woke up, and then woke up again in a different bed. I helped my mom with yardwork. That helped a little with the purposelessness, but I'm still really hurting from not having any set thing to do. I don't feel like I'm being productive or efficient. I need a job so I can get off the internet all day and actually go out and do things. I want a routine. I want to have breakfast every morning, and a salad for lunch, either homemade, or at some quaint little bistro or something with my coworkers. I want to meet other engineers. That'll be good, when I can do that. I also have to move out of my mom's house, that'll make it feel a lot more like I'm actually doing something. Cause right now, it just seems like I'm mooching and idling--and that's not good for me.
Nuhhhhh.
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She is good at that.