I went and saw Batman Begins tonight. Ariel didn't take kindly to one of the scenes--which prompted a whole cascade of emotion. I'm not really quite capable to deal with this at the moment, but I'm sure trying.
I'm really sad to go. I really don't want to leave everything here behind. I finally found someone to buy my furniture (the people who are taking over my spot) but they were real dicks about it... I dunno. It just seemed that once I finally sold that, and I was talking my dishes out of the cupboard--that was it. That's all there is. I was trying hard not to cry when I was lying (damn you whik!) in my room in front of dustin. It just seemed like that was the end. No more Dustin, or Mike or Tim. The people from last year. Everything is ending. It's just so weird.
The drive home is gonna suck too.
I bit my lip when I left Whik's yesterday. It's always been so hard to walk away from that place. Every time, it feels like I left the situation worse off than when I started. I had been living a fantasy for nine months, and it's kind of come crashing down--that's it. We really are now just text-in-a-box. It was really disappointing, because we didn't have anything to do. We don't have common interests. I just kind of sat there looking foolish and ineffective. Ah well, it was good while it lasted.
I just found out Ondine died. That was kind of weird. I knew her from Portland--the wednesday much. I don't really know her all that much, but hell, I've spoken to her.
Dustin is restless, night.
I'm really sad to go. I really don't want to leave everything here behind. I finally found someone to buy my furniture (the people who are taking over my spot) but they were real dicks about it... I dunno. It just seemed that once I finally sold that, and I was talking my dishes out of the cupboard--that was it. That's all there is. I was trying hard not to cry when I was lying (damn you whik!) in my room in front of dustin. It just seemed like that was the end. No more Dustin, or Mike or Tim. The people from last year. Everything is ending. It's just so weird.
The drive home is gonna suck too.
I bit my lip when I left Whik's yesterday. It's always been so hard to walk away from that place. Every time, it feels like I left the situation worse off than when I started. I had been living a fantasy for nine months, and it's kind of come crashing down--that's it. We really are now just text-in-a-box. It was really disappointing, because we didn't have anything to do. We don't have common interests. I just kind of sat there looking foolish and ineffective. Ah well, it was good while it lasted.
I just found out Ondine died. That was kind of weird. I knew her from Portland--the wednesday much. I don't really know her all that much, but hell, I've spoken to her.
Dustin is restless, night.
Lexi