So the day started out wonderful. The sky was filled with clouds that looked like cotton candly. It was warm and balmy. My friend and her 4 kids came over. We decided to grill. We had a great time playing ball, dancing. A mix of races just having a good time. There was no judgements reall going.
So for the last fewdays a bunch of children, teens have just been talking smack, as they say, threatening all the kids who live in my building and anyone who happened to be friends with my daughter. Up until now no parents had even been seen. These kids are unruly, foul mouthed and were just becoming annoying little curtain climbing crumb snatching wall monsters. Anyway, so after the bbque we came inside . My kids and my friends kids were outside playing. All of a sudden, its about 5:00pm now and it just goes weirdo from there.
I can hear to feamales ingaging in a very heated argument outside. I looked out my bedroom window and saw at least 30 ppl standing out there. Adults, children, and teens. It was mad crazy looking like a scene from Day of the Dead. I see these 2 women standing at the door outside of my apt. building.
She says all nice and faky "Would you mind letting us in the building. I would like to speak with the lady upstairs." I said, "You need to leave. You do not live here. You are not wanted heree. I told her I am sick of all the crap going on and if she didnt leave that I would call the police. They really suck sometimes, but they do serve and protect on occasion. So I told her one more time to leave . She told me "to shut the fuck up you white bitch." I yelled for my friend to bring me the phone, I yelled call 911. In that instant this crazy ass crack head, for I believe she was on something, ran over to me picked up the hot grill and proceded to throw it in my window, in my face.
The hot coals flew at me. My friends one year old was on the bed. The grill could have flew that for, but i stood in the way. A few coals burned me. I screamed, "Wheres my bat, wheres my bat." She was gonna come through my window, but she was too large. I had my bat and was swinging at her through my window. She screamed and picked up the grill again, but i hit it out of her hand with the bat. She cut me with a knife, but i didnt know that at the time.
She left. I panicked, wondering where my daughters were. Went out of the apt. without my bat, not even thinking. Screaming for my girls. One had been in another building. She lied to her older and sister and said i said it was ok. She never even asked me to leave so of course i was panicky. I turned around and that woman had let herself in, she was running at me. She was cussing and calling me "white bitch" over and over.
I was on the phone with 911. I was waiting in my neighbors apt. for the cops to come. I realized i was hiding like a little scared rabbit. Noway, not me. Done being a victim. I walked out. The crazy psycho lady was standing right in my path. My neighbors were holding her back. Actually she was by my door to my apt. My neighbors could barely hold her, anyway. She got lose and punched me in my face. Thats when i saw blood. I realized she had cut me earlier. I snapped. I saw red, then black. Then I just screamed, "You cut me, you bitch! You cut me!" I lunged at her, but they were backing her up. And i just decided to go into my apt.
This was all about the color of our skin. Peoplesay to me, "You are white, what do you know about racism." This was bull shit. Im tired of moving and running from bullies. I stood my ground. I feel alive. The Reiki saved me. She punched me, kicked me, cut me, which its deep but i didnt bleed hardly at all. I see bruises and cuts I feel the swollen ankle. But as she struck me, I felt nothing.
I remember after she punched me, and I fell back on the stairs. I saw a scene from, in my mind, The Crow. Where Brandon Lee, falls back, and sits up laughing. Thats how I felt. It was a very exhilerating moment.
I wasnt scared. I felt empowered. I had ritcheous anger, and it filled me up. It wasnt good or bad, but necessary.
I hurt now, actually, going to go lick my wounds now, send me hugs and kisses for my booboos. This is just my cue to move.
So for the last fewdays a bunch of children, teens have just been talking smack, as they say, threatening all the kids who live in my building and anyone who happened to be friends with my daughter. Up until now no parents had even been seen. These kids are unruly, foul mouthed and were just becoming annoying little curtain climbing crumb snatching wall monsters. Anyway, so after the bbque we came inside . My kids and my friends kids were outside playing. All of a sudden, its about 5:00pm now and it just goes weirdo from there.
I can hear to feamales ingaging in a very heated argument outside. I looked out my bedroom window and saw at least 30 ppl standing out there. Adults, children, and teens. It was mad crazy looking like a scene from Day of the Dead. I see these 2 women standing at the door outside of my apt. building.
She says all nice and faky "Would you mind letting us in the building. I would like to speak with the lady upstairs." I said, "You need to leave. You do not live here. You are not wanted heree. I told her I am sick of all the crap going on and if she didnt leave that I would call the police. They really suck sometimes, but they do serve and protect on occasion. So I told her one more time to leave . She told me "to shut the fuck up you white bitch." I yelled for my friend to bring me the phone, I yelled call 911. In that instant this crazy ass crack head, for I believe she was on something, ran over to me picked up the hot grill and proceded to throw it in my window, in my face.
The hot coals flew at me. My friends one year old was on the bed. The grill could have flew that for, but i stood in the way. A few coals burned me. I screamed, "Wheres my bat, wheres my bat." She was gonna come through my window, but she was too large. I had my bat and was swinging at her through my window. She screamed and picked up the grill again, but i hit it out of her hand with the bat. She cut me with a knife, but i didnt know that at the time.
She left. I panicked, wondering where my daughters were. Went out of the apt. without my bat, not even thinking. Screaming for my girls. One had been in another building. She lied to her older and sister and said i said it was ok. She never even asked me to leave so of course i was panicky. I turned around and that woman had let herself in, she was running at me. She was cussing and calling me "white bitch" over and over.
I was on the phone with 911. I was waiting in my neighbors apt. for the cops to come. I realized i was hiding like a little scared rabbit. Noway, not me. Done being a victim. I walked out. The crazy psycho lady was standing right in my path. My neighbors were holding her back. Actually she was by my door to my apt. My neighbors could barely hold her, anyway. She got lose and punched me in my face. Thats when i saw blood. I realized she had cut me earlier. I snapped. I saw red, then black. Then I just screamed, "You cut me, you bitch! You cut me!" I lunged at her, but they were backing her up. And i just decided to go into my apt.
This was all about the color of our skin. Peoplesay to me, "You are white, what do you know about racism." This was bull shit. Im tired of moving and running from bullies. I stood my ground. I feel alive. The Reiki saved me. She punched me, kicked me, cut me, which its deep but i didnt bleed hardly at all. I see bruises and cuts I feel the swollen ankle. But as she struck me, I felt nothing.
I remember after she punched me, and I fell back on the stairs. I saw a scene from, in my mind, The Crow. Where Brandon Lee, falls back, and sits up laughing. Thats how I felt. It was a very exhilerating moment.
I wasnt scared. I felt empowered. I had ritcheous anger, and it filled me up. It wasnt good or bad, but necessary.
I hurt now, actually, going to go lick my wounds now, send me hugs and kisses for my booboos. This is just my cue to move.
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