Hello to all of you beautiful people.
I graduated. i have 4 certificates. i also cmpleted my shaman class too, and got my cmpletion cert. for level one.
There is a hypnotist who is also a Shaman and i am having him put me through age regression.
If I could describe the twilight zone day i had. It was one f the best and worst days of my life, and i am thankful. There were some moments when the ppl in the class were rude to me and arrogant. I was left out of all the pictures. Ignored. When the graduation part came , they did not clap for me, maybe 2 ppl and the teacher out of a class of 21. everyone else clapped for the others. It was so strange and divided my inner being, hurt my soul. I cant even explain it... My feelings were the same like with the penpal issue.
I felt myself getting smaller and smaller. I shouldnt care but as each day went by, my classmates avoided me, ignored me, would not work with me. I was not the teachers pet. I never spoke out of turn. I gave every part f myself to ppl, and got nothing back in return, for warmth or compassion r any kind f nice. One by one ppl that talked t me before stopped talking to me. It was building up slowly, boiling ver this week. This guy walked up t me, and he hugged me and he said , "For what its worth, I like you." And my teacher saw how ppl were acting towards me, and he gave me three hugs, but even his wife turned her back on me.
I cant even describe this feeling it just brings back all the feelings of self loathing i had as a child and teenager. I got teased all the time. This felt like them days all over again.
but I am ging to get this business up and running and do what I was put on this world to do. Heal and live with compassion for everyone and everything. Like I said it was the best and worst day of my life.
I accomplished something so big I havent even begun to comprehend.
I graduated. i have 4 certificates. i also cmpleted my shaman class too, and got my cmpletion cert. for level one.
There is a hypnotist who is also a Shaman and i am having him put me through age regression.
If I could describe the twilight zone day i had. It was one f the best and worst days of my life, and i am thankful. There were some moments when the ppl in the class were rude to me and arrogant. I was left out of all the pictures. Ignored. When the graduation part came , they did not clap for me, maybe 2 ppl and the teacher out of a class of 21. everyone else clapped for the others. It was so strange and divided my inner being, hurt my soul. I cant even explain it... My feelings were the same like with the penpal issue.
I felt myself getting smaller and smaller. I shouldnt care but as each day went by, my classmates avoided me, ignored me, would not work with me. I was not the teachers pet. I never spoke out of turn. I gave every part f myself to ppl, and got nothing back in return, for warmth or compassion r any kind f nice. One by one ppl that talked t me before stopped talking to me. It was building up slowly, boiling ver this week. This guy walked up t me, and he hugged me and he said , "For what its worth, I like you." And my teacher saw how ppl were acting towards me, and he gave me three hugs, but even his wife turned her back on me.
I cant even describe this feeling it just brings back all the feelings of self loathing i had as a child and teenager. I got teased all the time. This felt like them days all over again.
but I am ging to get this business up and running and do what I was put on this world to do. Heal and live with compassion for everyone and everything. Like I said it was the best and worst day of my life.
I accomplished something so big I havent even begun to comprehend.
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patchouli:
Why would they treat you like that?!
beledi:
Congratulations on graduation sweetie. It makes me so sad that people would treat you that way.