This time has been one of great change for me, as I have mentioned before, and I'm constantly seeing new sides to myself. Having spent the last 8 out of 10 years married, the idea of taking care of myself was terrifying. However, having begun to grow a thicker skin, I've learned to see through so much of the facade that others present in order to manipulate me, and learned to not tolerate it. This past week, my determination gained me a brand-new, amazing job I have wanted for years with a prestigious nursing facility, and in turn gotten me fired from the sad, drama - filled, unprofessional pit that I had been working for through the past four years. I refused to take the blame for others or to keep my head down and mouth shut, and didn't even tremble when I told off my now ex-boss. I through my ex out of my house with the stern determination that he would NEVER call me a cunt again in my own house, and that I do not find making fun of people to be affectionate or appropriate in any way.
This has me concerned slightly, as I can feel myself changing into a new person who doesn't need protecting or baby-ing, and so much of my friendships and relationships have been built on my weakness. I have made new friends who bring out my strengths and even encourage me to not be a pushover, rather than stepping in and saying they will take care of it for me. Not that I am becoming a bitch, I am actually quite happy and positive, as I've always been, just...not so green. I wish I could share so much more with you right now, but I have many secret passions and thoughts that I am afraid to jinx should I choose to share them just yet.
Be powerful. Be kind. Be a force to recon with.
