I watched Average Joe today. I know. Lame.
I kind of feel for these guys, though. They're not unattractive (except for that one arrogant son-of-a-bitch), but most girls wouldn't give them a chance.
I've just always felt that I was a "personality" girl; not the girl you'd hit on at a bar. I'm the kind of girl that's a friend at first...just one of the guys. You won't have secret fantasies about me, but you'll invite me over to get drunk and talk shit.
I'm cool. Not hot. I'm funny. Not hot. I'm easy to be around. Not hot.
I think it'd be interesting to experience having the same appeal as a gorgeous woman, just to see if there really is a difference in a way that guys regard you in ordinary situations.
Is it so bad to feel wanted in that way?
I'm glad that I'm with the person that I'm with, but it took and awful lot of chasing on my behalf (8 months of pursuit) to get anywhere. I can't help but wonder if it would have been thatmuch easier if I was a little more "hot" than "personality". And I know if I was going after someone who was only going to judge based on looks, it would be shallow and aren't worthy of my time... I guess it may be human nature to wonder what's it like to be that person instead. It could just be me.
I kind of feel for these guys, though. They're not unattractive (except for that one arrogant son-of-a-bitch), but most girls wouldn't give them a chance.
I've just always felt that I was a "personality" girl; not the girl you'd hit on at a bar. I'm the kind of girl that's a friend at first...just one of the guys. You won't have secret fantasies about me, but you'll invite me over to get drunk and talk shit.
I'm cool. Not hot. I'm funny. Not hot. I'm easy to be around. Not hot.
I think it'd be interesting to experience having the same appeal as a gorgeous woman, just to see if there really is a difference in a way that guys regard you in ordinary situations.
Is it so bad to feel wanted in that way?
I'm glad that I'm with the person that I'm with, but it took and awful lot of chasing on my behalf (8 months of pursuit) to get anywhere. I can't help but wonder if it would have been thatmuch easier if I was a little more "hot" than "personality". And I know if I was going after someone who was only going to judge based on looks, it would be shallow and aren't worthy of my time... I guess it may be human nature to wonder what's it like to be that person instead. It could just be me.
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Sometimes when I read about other people's achievements...like scientist/grand artist and wonder what it would be like to be insanely brillant, researching ground breaking work in quatum physics or nanotechnology or writing beautiful books/creating masterpieces or doing some ground breaking research on a subject. I like to think I am capable of doing something outstanding one day, but then if it were between that and truly being happy I would have to choose the latter. I dunno, before I use to wonder what would it be like to be very tall, manilish looking and white. Most of my friends when I was much younger, where white studdy boys that took after shows like 91210 or what not and always seem top get the girls (whom were white as well). Though I wasnt pissed at white people (its not there fault where we choose to live), being in a white culture did fuck with mental images of myself and my physical attraction. I started having doubts on how I look..how stupid I feel cause my eyes were different or my nose or my skin...I think I still carry some those scars today (still think i'm number 2 la la la weep weep weep)..but hey they are pretty insignficant. I feel much better of realizing whom I am now,,,and I guess I feels special that I've always looked dffierent from the blonde hair blue eye boys who always seem to get blonde hair blue eye girls. Sometimes I hang out with very gorgeous people (with thier cheessy accents and all)...with looks to die for..but its not like I would hump them anymore than some young libarian behind the desk...I have a much more appreciation of a deeper beauty (depending what that deep beauty is really makes a difference..not thier flesh!!) among people and unfortantly that has allowed me to find attraction in almost anyone I encountered.