It's something I need to vent. One of the things that I had feeling is the sense of loneliness. It's been you g on for years and I'm almost 40. I hate the fact that I have no one to talk at night. I feel like I have to daydream about being with someone to get over the fact that I have no woman beside me. It can be rough sometimes as I've never been in a relationship or made love to a girl. Part of it is that I get nervous around women because I don't talk to many. The other part is that I'm afraid what they think about me with the way I look and the fact that I suffer from depression, anxiety and Aspergers Syndrome.
I keep wishing a woman would come into my life and show me what love is or find a woman who would talk to me and be friends with me so I can become comfortable around women.
Part of me is afraid that I'll never know what it's like to love and be with a woman and continue to have the same problems