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HORNITOS COMES CLEAN. .
i haven't had a (real ) girlfriend since early 2000. (i know this, because we had naked millenium!) and then soon after she got preggers and had an abortion, and ya' know things never really go well after those type-a things. . but anyways, there's a few reasons for this situation. (not counting being incarcerated for a little while )
first of all. .i'm 35, still live with my parents and have a minimum wage job.
(know anybody interested in that profile?) didn't think so. .
so i kinda feel like i don't have a lot to offer someone at the moment. . (other than some cheap laughs, free booze, soft touches and . . . did i mention free booze?), so i must admit , i don't try very hard to find a girlfriend . besides, i'd rather spend what little money i do have on my son. . so there. (I am currently trying to change my financial sitch, but it might take a while, besides i actually like my job, !)
another thing is. . i want to meet somebody that treats me really nice. .
that's kind of a vague statement, but what i mean is. . i don't ever want the person i'm involved with to make me feel bad about myself . .('cause i got that handled all by myself) nor do i ever want to make someone i'm involved with feel bad about themselves. i'm not going to be in a relationship where there is a lot of feuding and such. . and, i refuse to GRUDGE-FUCK! i refuse to have sex with someone when we're angry at each other. . it might make for some good (great) sex, but in reality. .it's just no-good. .
so, i hope it doesn't seem like i'm complaining. . .as i've said before. . i have it 'so' easy. i have a great mom, a great kid. . and i'm feeling fuckin' lucky as hell , just to able to write this tonite. .
HORNITOS COMES CLEAN. .
i haven't had a (real ) girlfriend since early 2000. (i know this, because we had naked millenium!) and then soon after she got preggers and had an abortion, and ya' know things never really go well after those type-a things. . but anyways, there's a few reasons for this situation. (not counting being incarcerated for a little while )
first of all. .i'm 35, still live with my parents and have a minimum wage job.
(know anybody interested in that profile?) didn't think so. .
so i kinda feel like i don't have a lot to offer someone at the moment. . (other than some cheap laughs, free booze, soft touches and . . . did i mention free booze?), so i must admit , i don't try very hard to find a girlfriend . besides, i'd rather spend what little money i do have on my son. . so there. (I am currently trying to change my financial sitch, but it might take a while, besides i actually like my job, !)
another thing is. . i want to meet somebody that treats me really nice. .
that's kind of a vague statement, but what i mean is. . i don't ever want the person i'm involved with to make me feel bad about myself . .('cause i got that handled all by myself) nor do i ever want to make someone i'm involved with feel bad about themselves. i'm not going to be in a relationship where there is a lot of feuding and such. . and, i refuse to GRUDGE-FUCK! i refuse to have sex with someone when we're angry at each other. . it might make for some good (great) sex, but in reality. .it's just no-good. .
so, i hope it doesn't seem like i'm complaining. . .as i've said before. . i have it 'so' easy. i have a great mom, a great kid. . and i'm feeling fuckin' lucky as hell , just to able to write this tonite. .
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
jaeiam:
Don't feel less of a person for not having what society has set as priority for you.
unravled:
Sure things? Guaranteed random, meaningless sex? What's wrong with you?