hood

I failed my pool swim, tomorrows my sea swim .....

i had 8 minuets to do it in and i did it in 11.37, i pushed myself so hard that i almost passed out and they had to give me oxygen, i'm exhausted

after i was given the ok i was sent hoe, i was feeling odd though so i got in my car and headed ut for a surf, its blustery right now and its not ideal but theres waves,, as a result of the weather though i had the beach to myself no other surfers just me and the sea guls, it gave me time to reflect on whats happening to me right now, and in truth i have no answers, all i know is i'm not happy, dispite having everything i've been fighting for for the last eight years, and that failing a fuckin swim means fuck al in the rand scheam of things because i came here to learn to shape not becaome a lifeguard.

Addition: 16:49 on the 27th of september 2007

I failed my sea swim but i'm totally fuckin extatic about my time, i had 4 minuets to do it in and i did it in five dead (actually i felt dead at the end of that lol) so wohoo for me and all that shit and i'm off for a surf, PS in case you havent seen it go rent out stranger than fiction its an absoulutly beautiful and made me feel warm and fuzzy inside man i'm turning in to such a girl of late lol ok i'm off the waves are good and dispite being absoulutly dead on my feet i dont want to pass them up

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