Scar tissue that I wish you saw.......
I just made myself a cd. I'm listening to a chilli peppers track right now(hence my opening statement).
I am chain smoking and I know somewhere deep inside I hate myself for it, but right now I am too busy chastising myself about other stuff.
Have you ever had those days when you just feel super self consious?? I just feel very insecure today, and I hate it because I hate that I am being consumed by myself right now. I have this Ru Paul like speech I give to people about learning to love yourself etc etc..but today I don't care about that stupid speech. I hate myself and I feel I have earned it so there!! WHAA
Ok, something less cry babyish.
Ooh, now I am listening to Metallica!!! Until it sleeps is one of my fav songs. I am all over the place when it comes to my musical taste. I had a wicked crush on Marilyn Manson for about a year when I was 15 or 16, and if it wasn't for the grunge and metal I lived off of in high school-along with my fiona and tori I would of probably gone completly mad. But one day I discovered Wu-tang and Mos Def-high school, and by the time I was twenty, I could really see why Notorious was so fucking wonderful and worth every bit of his rep, and then I really got into Nas, and well I have always had a musical boner for trip hop. Ffuck I got to go-I must continue this entry later.
I just made myself a cd. I'm listening to a chilli peppers track right now(hence my opening statement).
I am chain smoking and I know somewhere deep inside I hate myself for it, but right now I am too busy chastising myself about other stuff.
Have you ever had those days when you just feel super self consious?? I just feel very insecure today, and I hate it because I hate that I am being consumed by myself right now. I have this Ru Paul like speech I give to people about learning to love yourself etc etc..but today I don't care about that stupid speech. I hate myself and I feel I have earned it so there!! WHAA
Ok, something less cry babyish.
Ooh, now I am listening to Metallica!!! Until it sleeps is one of my fav songs. I am all over the place when it comes to my musical taste. I had a wicked crush on Marilyn Manson for about a year when I was 15 or 16, and if it wasn't for the grunge and metal I lived off of in high school-along with my fiona and tori I would of probably gone completly mad. But one day I discovered Wu-tang and Mos Def-high school, and by the time I was twenty, I could really see why Notorious was so fucking wonderful and worth every bit of his rep, and then I really got into Nas, and well I have always had a musical boner for trip hop. Ffuck I got to go-I must continue this entry later.
Sophomore year I discovered classical and found a nice reprieve from the anger...
Junior year started getting into rap and rebought all the albums from my youth that I lost/threw away when I became a metalhead (NWA, Eazy-E, Ice-T).
I used to be huge into DMX but I think he turned into a pussy. Now I rock out mostly to Xzibit, Techn N9ne, Public Enemy (ALWAYS), Gravediggaz and assorted others.
Saw Cypress Hill live once in Albuquerque, New Mexico... hehe... stoned off my ass with my buddy (who's a blond-haired, blue-eyed white boy from Fort Collins, CO. we stuck out like clowns in church and it RULED!!!!!!!)
Just thought I'd share...