honeychile007

So something hapened to me the other day, that confirms what i've been feeling for quite some time.

When I was with my former boyfriend, I was a much more laid back gal, according to my friends and bartender. I think it was because all he wanted to do, was spend his free time with me. So, I always had someone to go home to and snuggle and watch movies with. And that was great stuff. It really was all I needed 80% of the time.

Well, that ended. And I've reverted back to my party girl ways.

Only now I'm more of a party girl than I ever was before. Which I guess still isn't a lot by some people's standards, especially since my other half is engaged. But there's still trouble to get into. And since I'm the single one, I tend to get into the trouble.

What I've been feeling for a while, is that I don't really think that I like the girl I've become since the break up. Apparently I'm much more fun now that I'm out most nights. At least that what my friends say. And I've never been known to look before I leap, but, lately I've been looking back on where I leaped from more than I ever used to. It all just seems like such a good idea at the time. Or at the very least, a fun idea. So I figure what the hell?

I know I'm not going to change. Some people really think things through before they make a decision. For me, that feels inherently wrong. Like I'm going against my beliefs. Perhaps that's why Thom was so good for me, he calmed me with out trying to change me. I guess I need to find me another one of those. The problem with that is, I really don't fancy mellow guys. Thom lured me in with his unbelievable good looks. I like cocky and arrogant. And I've yet to find a cocky, arrogant, mellow kind a guy.

I just really needed to get that out of my system.