holyshitbag

You can do anything to me, but if your my friend do me a favor and dont call me a faggot.

Oddly enough when i have the intention of doing something I know that I will eventually do it but it doesnt really worry me, the second I set a date for something I get extremly nervous. I have three weeks till i split my tounge and I imagine that as time progresses i will relax a little, until the night before. Then I probably wont...
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He may be a worthless peice of shit nazi, but Varg still made three really good, and one pretty good black metal albums. His casio keyboard shit on the other hand is utterly pointless and should be collected and burnt in massive bon fires world wide.

Yeo-My family did all the things i thought they would for about 10 minutes then they spent the rest of the night ignoring me. I think next year i am gonna ignore the fact that x-mas exists and spend the day alone.

I really fucking hate x-mas, its a waste of my time, its just another day for my family to bitch about how i look, the fact that i still havent gone to school, and that i still dont have a girlfriend (this last one being because one of the things i am most afraid of is telling them the truth about me). That and it...
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Friday night i sent a the picture of my scalpeling to the main guy in Today is the Day and, when he replied he said it was fucking cool, and that he wanted to post it. I asked him where he was gonna post it cause i was curios and today i got his message. It was "On our new album." Needless to say i...
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Its odd but lately life is becoming more and more a private joke for myself.

I finally got the picture of my cutting when it was fresh. OH THE GORE!!!

Is it bad that i get the scalpeling done instead of cutting myself? At least this way I have some form of beauty or message with my scars instead of just a scar. I cant help that i am a cutter but i can stop myself from doing it, but i still want the scars as a representation of what i am, more so then...
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I went and got my scalpel touched up today, which means i got the entire thing re-cut again. This time it was different though since i knew what to expect and how to handle the pain. The only part that really ever gets me is when i can hear it cutting through my skin, it almost sounds like paper tearing. I should be able to...
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I wnet and got my scalpel touched up today, which means i got the entire thing re-cut again. This time it was different though since i knew what to expect and how to handle the pain. The only part that really ever gets me is when i can hear it cutting through my skin, it almost sounds like paper tearing. I should be able to...
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Out of all the shit Ghost (ferret who shares the same room with me) could find to play with he found a huge folded plastic tarp that he likes to rip apart and then hide. Odd.