Listening to Marilyn Manson's song 'Valentines Day'. I love his voice...its so deep and gutteral 
When he sings 'Slit a wrist and send us to heaven'---SWOON.
Anyway, so I have been dying to smoke a cigarette and it will be thirty days on thursday (unless you count that one stupid time two weeks back-which I totally don't). I was feeling sort of restless and crazy and decided to search the county for Quest Cancer Sticks, which just means I stopped at one damn rite aid that was sorta far from my apartment. Unfortunetly, they only had the low nicotene cancer sticks. I still baught them, but I felt so guilty about having them. I was just like these things are pure poisen and so unchic and unhealthy. I decided to eat my pear and think about whether or not I was going to smoke one or not. They cost me $7 fucking dollars...but needless to say, I tossed them all in the toilet, before I could even light one
Could you believe it??
Anyway...I will have my cancer stick one day...just not today. Today I will stay sober.
Also tossed out my half and half.
Has anyone ever heard of the song SEED by The Roots???? I love it I first heard it in the movie I think I love my Wife---so funny. Chris Rock may be my favorite comedian.
I really need to write something; a good solid piece. I have ideas, but I am allowing myself to wallow is self pity. I can't allow this to go on much longer though.
Did you all hear Amy Whinehouse has Emphasyma??? Cigs and Crack kill kiddies!!
Look at me when I have curls...this is a little old. I had blonde hair then...this is last summer or early last fall.
Now I am listening to The Roots album The Tipping point.
I feel lonley. I have become terribly aware of my lonliness since I stopped smoking. I guess when you spend most of your free time lighting marlboros on your porch, you delude yourself into thinking your doing something. True, watching tv could do the same thing, but I am not that into tv..I like it and all, but I always know I am being lazy and wasting time when I watch it too long. Still I choose to spend most of my free time alone. When I get around people too long all I want to do is be alone.
Look how flat chested I was before YAZ.
And now
They look even bigger (if you ask me) today. Maybe I need to stop taking these things.
When he sings 'Slit a wrist and send us to heaven'---SWOON.Anyway, so I have been dying to smoke a cigarette and it will be thirty days on thursday (unless you count that one stupid time two weeks back-which I totally don't). I was feeling sort of restless and crazy and decided to search the county for Quest Cancer Sticks, which just means I stopped at one damn rite aid that was sorta far from my apartment. Unfortunetly, they only had the low nicotene cancer sticks. I still baught them, but I felt so guilty about having them. I was just like these things are pure poisen and so unchic and unhealthy. I decided to eat my pear and think about whether or not I was going to smoke one or not. They cost me $7 fucking dollars...but needless to say, I tossed them all in the toilet, before I could even light one
Could you believe it??Anyway...I will have my cancer stick one day...just not today. Today I will stay sober.
Also tossed out my half and half.
Has anyone ever heard of the song SEED by The Roots???? I love it
I first heard it in the movie I think I love my Wife---so funny. Chris Rock may be my favorite comedian.I really need to write something; a good solid piece. I have ideas, but I am allowing myself to wallow is self pity. I can't allow this to go on much longer though.
Did you all hear Amy Whinehouse has Emphasyma??? Cigs and Crack kill kiddies!!
Look at me when I have curls...this is a little old. I had blonde hair then...this is last summer or early last fall.
Now I am listening to The Roots album The Tipping point.
I feel lonley. I have become terribly aware of my lonliness since I stopped smoking. I guess when you spend most of your free time lighting marlboros on your porch, you delude yourself into thinking your doing something. True, watching tv could do the same thing, but I am not that into tv..I like it and all, but I always know I am being lazy and wasting time when I watch it too long. Still I choose to spend most of my free time alone. When I get around people too long all I want to do is be alone.
Look how flat chested I was before YAZ.
And now
They look even bigger (if you ask me) today. Maybe I need to stop taking these things.
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I'll go rent it/buy it straight away.
p.s I love you already
oh hell yes. ... i can spook a tranny at a hundred yards (you know the term "spook" as in sus out, identify, recognize)
spent a lot of time, five years working with homeless tranny hookers and others out on the whore strolls of time square back in the bad old days of crack n shit (early 90s)
now, yaz--birth control that makes big uns. how come i havent heard of this? why did i think the whole world was wearing push ups?
i just don't get out much any more