holly

So i am getting a bit frustrated. maybe it is just getting close to the end of the year and i am starting to look back and realize this year was kinda pathetic. i made some more amazing friendships...yep. helped my best friend survive cancer...yep. travelled to SE Asia....yep. got more kick ass tattoos that i totally love...yep. got an awesome promotion at my job...yep. started getting back into photography....yep. and totally found an awesome guy that reminds me why life is so much fun...nope.

i'll ask the question asked a million times.....

"where are all the awesome guys in this town?"

"is it me? is it them? do i smell bad? is it because i dont wear heels?"

i am so frustrated. i'll hang out with a guy and realize it isnt a fit but it is fun and then just let if fade away. i have not really been excited about anyone in...... goodness i dont even know. i have some crushes but i'm not even serious about them. san francisco is so difficult.

i go out all the time. i have to interact with people all day long for my job (no rad guys ever come in...ok maybe a couple a week....but really.....i wait on like 400 people a week...those are not good odds). i try to go to shows, events, parties, cafes etc........

i think i hang out with guys too often. i have a lot of guy friends. it is impossible to meet a guy if your out with a guy that you're only friends with.

i need to figure this out. heels are out of the question...can't wear them. i have really bad knees and i dont wear dresses.

so where did you meet your partner? advice? words of wisdom? got a hott friend that is single and likes a girl that doesnt care if she gets dirty, probably wont wear a dress, will be up early in the morning and up late at night, loves to laugh, never fights, can always justify getting new tattoos but never buys new shoes?

and dont say "you need to stop looking".....i am not "looking" just getting tired of waiting......

HALP!