I'm tired of being miserable and I'm looking for a miracle...
I once heard someone say that a miracle was just a change in perception...and if that's true...does that mean I can give up being miserable? Just like that? Just by changing the way I've been looking at things?
Let's see...instead of saying I've lost all my independence...I can say...for the first time in my life someone other than myself is taking care of my basic needs...many of them things I've learned to neglect over the years, no matter how threatening they can be to my health.
And instead of saying I'm being suffocated by spending 24/7 with just the one person...I can say...I'm spending time with someone who would do ANYTHING (including fly me home to nyc for xmas) to make me happy...and who still loves me after the past two miserable weeks...
Plus...considering that I WAS originally up here to work on the car...and considering how LITTLE I've done that lately...I've gotta say, he's the best boss I'VE ever worked for!
Though, my lazy dazy attitude toward getting the car done is about to change, as of this morning...because we're shooting to have that car done and running by our Halloween party (28th) and the Vamps car show (29th). I'm pretty sure it's one of the last car shows of the season...so it feels a little like now or never. Which is good, because I work best under deadlines. And god knows I'm sick and tired of looking at this car!!
So there ya have it, ladies and gentlemen...not much more news to print...except that I might be back at the drag strip tonight...with one of my GIRLS!!! Woot!
I once heard someone say that a miracle was just a change in perception...and if that's true...does that mean I can give up being miserable? Just like that? Just by changing the way I've been looking at things?
Let's see...instead of saying I've lost all my independence...I can say...for the first time in my life someone other than myself is taking care of my basic needs...many of them things I've learned to neglect over the years, no matter how threatening they can be to my health.
And instead of saying I'm being suffocated by spending 24/7 with just the one person...I can say...I'm spending time with someone who would do ANYTHING (including fly me home to nyc for xmas) to make me happy...and who still loves me after the past two miserable weeks...
Plus...considering that I WAS originally up here to work on the car...and considering how LITTLE I've done that lately...I've gotta say, he's the best boss I'VE ever worked for!
Though, my lazy dazy attitude toward getting the car done is about to change, as of this morning...because we're shooting to have that car done and running by our Halloween party (28th) and the Vamps car show (29th). I'm pretty sure it's one of the last car shows of the season...so it feels a little like now or never. Which is good, because I work best under deadlines. And god knows I'm sick and tired of looking at this car!!
So there ya have it, ladies and gentlemen...not much more news to print...except that I might be back at the drag strip tonight...with one of my GIRLS!!! Woot!
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As for changing your perception...I say trust your instincts. Consider the positives, consider the negatives, then - trust your instincts. Always.
do youl ike this guy at all, or are you just hangin in ther for lack of something else?
anyway, remember that for a hot chick like yourself there are many options as far as "dating" so go ahead sample different "relationships" and decide what works best for B]YOU.
well, enough preaching - i think you're awesome, but i know that prob don't mean much to you since you don't really know me in "real life"..