holiday

so i know i should be tired right now...but im not. i know i should head to bed..... but im no where near that point. i cant stop thinking.....its this lil problem i have. i have come to realize that i am a big gambler in life. i put myself in these situations where i can either win big or lose everything. i like this a lot about myself but sometimes (like tonight) i see it as a huge downfall.
another thing on my mind is boys. i want one. i have one in mind, but like usual i seem to always want what most likely will never work out. why does that shit happen? you meet someone that seems so perfect, someone who you have much in common with but for whatever reason, theres that one big thing standing the way of the perfection you see so clearly in your mind becoming a reality. it always seems to happen just when you think you could never meet anyone and you get real pumped about it then it turns out to be a huge cock tease.......GRRRRRRR
so i move tomorrow. i am so not ready for it, but i know i'll be able to get done. i cant wait....... finally once again i will live by myself. no roomates....woo-hoo
for those who care......my breakfast was the fucking bomb

xoxox