As time goes on, I become more and more sure that her and I will never be together.
I never thought that until a few days ago. I finally got to spend sometime with her, and while everything went perfectly, while we got along better than ever and sparks were flying like a 4th of July finale, I just knew that nothing would ever happen. Very simply.
We kissed each other good-bye, three times. But I'm no fool. I know that nothing will come of that. Coming to this realization, while it has freed me a bit, has done little more than shoot me down even further. I'm glad that I'm still living at home. The constant arguements and complete lack of alcohol will atleast help me feel a bit alive while I try and get over the girl that I've wanted since the moment I met her almost 5 years ago. The woman who has wanted me ever since that same day, and never did anything about it.
I never thought that until a few days ago. I finally got to spend sometime with her, and while everything went perfectly, while we got along better than ever and sparks were flying like a 4th of July finale, I just knew that nothing would ever happen. Very simply.
We kissed each other good-bye, three times. But I'm no fool. I know that nothing will come of that. Coming to this realization, while it has freed me a bit, has done little more than shoot me down even further. I'm glad that I'm still living at home. The constant arguements and complete lack of alcohol will atleast help me feel a bit alive while I try and get over the girl that I've wanted since the moment I met her almost 5 years ago. The woman who has wanted me ever since that same day, and never did anything about it.