holdena

So... leaving has now reached the point of no return. I can not honestly think of a single reason for me to stay here longer than a year before I'm gone. My only compaint at the moment job wise is that its so cold outside, and that makes it really hard if your flat footin' it around town...

And even though I'm going and I don't want to make any new freindships or attachments that I'd have to leave behind.. well, I have to admit I want to. I'm so afully lonley... but if I manage to get a full time job that will take my mind off it.


And re-writing flowers is turning out to be a whole lot harder than I thought. Not technicly, cause at this point I am just trying to get a basic first-draft done of the text, after I have that banged out a little I'll work on layout (because that is a big part of the zine and its feel). Whats turning out to be hard is remembering all of these things, and there is so much I am trying to expand which means trying to re-invoke those feelings I had then.... there were a lot of up's and downs through those three Lovers... its hard to write for more than ten or twenty minutes at a time. I keep having to go take breaks and do house work. But hey! I painted my room, which is nice! Although it ticked off my roomate, she was hella pissed that the bed was moved and everything came off the walls... of course, now she's happily sleeping on her bed again cause its back were it was.


And oh man... I am craving some risk big time.... or some late night dumpster diving, and 2am cheep coffee at Denys or some such place....



and...

I really want to cuddle with someone... besides my roomate.