hockeyjunkie

I went out looking for a job again today. I applied at a small bookstore, a hallmark store, and yesterday I applied at two video stores.

I'm re-motivated to find a job because I just paid rent and utilities, and I have no money left in my account. I had gotten my savings account up to $300 after my loan reimbursment check, but it is down at an all-time low of $50. I am so broke that it just isn't funny. Even thinking about the last month, I can't figure out how I spent my $700 reimbursment money already. I didn't go on any shopping trips or make an impulse buys. It just doesn't make sense where that money went.

And now I don't even have enough money to buy some groceries. Luckily I have a few left over from my last trip to market. What this also means is that at the end of March, my SG account will expire. So this is the last month I can update and keep in touch with my few SG friends I have made.

I need a job so bad that I started to consider being a stripper. Too bad I just wouldn't ever do it.

I haven't written anything in a few days--novel-wise. I don't know where my writing motivation has gone. I write journal entries, and that's about it. I miss writing so much, but I keep thinking that I should be out there finding a "real" job instead of wasting my time writing. Too bad I don't have any credentials in writing beyond being an Editor for a literary review. I have no publication credits, so I can't be just a writer.

I need to marry a guy who will support me while I write. If I didn't have to worry about immediate financial issues, I could put my focus back on my writing and probably pound out a novel in about a month.

(deep sigh)

Sometimes things just don't go the way you want them to.