The only thing I seemed worried about these days is my loneliness. God knows I need to find a job, but I just don't care right now.
Case in point:
Jake wants me to visit him on the east coast. I would love to see him, as I have not seen him in a year...since he moved back there from here.
Jake and I shared one moment when he went to school at SNC with me. After the 80s Party, we went in his Jetta and had sex. That was it. It was a one-night stand. Yes, I had had a crush on him, but I would have taken anything. A simple kiss would have blown my head off.
Lately, we have been talking via AIM. He wants me to come visit him for a few days (although he says I need buy a one-way ticket because I'm never leaving) and part of me would LOVE to.
1. I need a vacation from Nevada
2. I have no job, no responsibilities at this moment in time
3. I've never been to the east coast by myself (meaning not on holiday with the 'rents)
4. An old high school friend lives in Maryland and I may be able to see her as well
A lot of people around here don't have very high opinions of Jake. Yes, he has had sex with a lot of people. Yes, he has cheated on girlfriends. But I believe he is in the same stage of life many of us are: he just believes that he should sleep around until he finds "the one."
Am I "the one"? Probably not. I'm not delusional here. But part of me loves Jake--as I know part of him loves me. Whether we are "destined" to be together, or whateverthefuck, I don't know and don't particularly care.
I just wonder if I should travel that far to see him. I need some help here--some advice. I love Jake, and to see him would make me the happiest girl ever, but is it the smartest (emotionally) thing to do?
*sigh*
Even if you don't know me, or really understand my situation, any type of advice would be really appreciated right about now. I just don't know whether to go or not. I don't know if I should spent that money on taking a risk--or if I should just save it for a "rainy day." Or whateverthefuck they call it.
Is it worth the risk?
Case in point:
Jake wants me to visit him on the east coast. I would love to see him, as I have not seen him in a year...since he moved back there from here.
Jake and I shared one moment when he went to school at SNC with me. After the 80s Party, we went in his Jetta and had sex. That was it. It was a one-night stand. Yes, I had had a crush on him, but I would have taken anything. A simple kiss would have blown my head off.
Lately, we have been talking via AIM. He wants me to come visit him for a few days (although he says I need buy a one-way ticket because I'm never leaving) and part of me would LOVE to.
1. I need a vacation from Nevada
2. I have no job, no responsibilities at this moment in time
3. I've never been to the east coast by myself (meaning not on holiday with the 'rents)
4. An old high school friend lives in Maryland and I may be able to see her as well
A lot of people around here don't have very high opinions of Jake. Yes, he has had sex with a lot of people. Yes, he has cheated on girlfriends. But I believe he is in the same stage of life many of us are: he just believes that he should sleep around until he finds "the one."
Am I "the one"? Probably not. I'm not delusional here. But part of me loves Jake--as I know part of him loves me. Whether we are "destined" to be together, or whateverthefuck, I don't know and don't particularly care.
I just wonder if I should travel that far to see him. I need some help here--some advice. I love Jake, and to see him would make me the happiest girl ever, but is it the smartest (emotionally) thing to do?
*sigh*
Even if you don't know me, or really understand my situation, any type of advice would be really appreciated right about now. I just don't know whether to go or not. I don't know if I should spent that money on taking a risk--or if I should just save it for a "rainy day." Or whateverthefuck they call it.
Is it worth the risk?
And as far as the sleeping around goes, I love that you've put enough thought into it to know that some people just go through that. It sounds like you've got your head pretty square on your shoulders.
Good luck, girl! I swear I wish you the best.